Journal

Well, it's been I guess a five year battle with alcohol and it seems that I am losing,  at least for now.  Last month was good, I only drank twice; but that was probably because of a medication I was taking that reduces the urge, but I stopped taking it because it made me confused and kind of stupid.  So, when I drink, if I drink enough, I end up being up all night and doing stupid things I shouldn't to.  It may be related to the fact that I have cyclothymia.  So, last night that happened.  Tonight I went to an AA meeting, which was the first one I have done in a while.  It was nice.  I really was against doing it before, but I don't see any other way at this point.  Moderation Management is only effective for 3% of problem drinkers.  So, we'll see; I just don't know what to do and I want things to be normal for a change.