AngelKaren's Journal

Hey ya’ll... just letting you know that Phillip decided to move out… yep, he abandoned me and his brothers.

He took some of his clothes, so last night me and the brother-in-laws packed the rest, and have it ready so he can get it.

Can’t deal with having his things here, reminding me of him….. reminding me of wanting someone/something I can’t have….. reminding me of wanting love from somebody who keeps saying he doesn’t want me and who keeps saying it’s over between us….. can’t deal with him waltzing in and out and tearing my heart and nerves apart.

If he really doesn’t want me or love me then he needs to let go….. and go away so I can let go and get on with my life.I lost down to about 110 pounds, and have literally felt like I was dying…..  his selfishness has been a cruelty to me.

His main concerns have been about>>>>> him getting the cell phone back (took it away from him because they’re both in my name….. he has let other people use it, and left it where people could get ahold of it)….. plus he’s focused on getting the Camaro (it’s in my name, too….. plan to keep it and hopefully swap it for a small, good, cheap-on-gas car) …..and his other main focuses are on getting the big TV, and getting a divorce.

He told me to write him a check on payday….. to half it between me and him….. he must want the Camaro and the other stuff bad enough to do it….. at least for now.

Meanwhile, me and the guys have-to finish packing and look for a place to live because we can’t afford this place on their income alone….. we don’t want to live here anyway, due to this country slumlord landlord.

Still haven’t heard from the primary doctor about them faxing a health clearance and the go-ahead for me to be off the blood thinner before surgery, to the nose doctor.

It doesn’t look like they’re ever gonna do it, so I may not get to have the surgery before the health insurance is not available (after a divorce).

Phillip had said he would give me alimony, pay for another vehicle and keep health insurance on me, but he doesn’t hold true to his word.

That would cost him $1,100.00 per month …………and I don’t see him doing that for me.

Without him being the payee of his brothers’ checks, he wouldn’t have the extra money available to do it….. of course he still thinks he’s gonna have them/their checks for him to lean on, but boy, is he gonna be pissed when he finds out differently!

I don’t guess I’ll have the internet after this month…..will need to make cut-backs so me and the guys can make ends meet.

Guess I better hush now….. gotta go get a new tire for the van (had a major flat)….. ridin’ on a worn spare doughnut and a prayer.

Thank you all for your precious prayers, for your love and support….. God bless YOU.

Take care, hugs and love….. Mona_K