im okay
November 26, 2008 10:03pm
My dsl line is down at the moment. And will be back online soon. Happy thanksgiving. Kat
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4x4kat
1:47am, February 18, 2009
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About Me
4x4kat
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About Me
food/grocery clerk for a major chain in S.Calif, Im ADHD/& recently have shown signs of bipolar, I am in treatment for depression, & anxiety. In the past I would just self medicate myself then about 16 years ago I entered a rehab my drug of choice was alcohol I did well for several years but still battled with depression etc.But was never treated for it. A few years ago I started using (Meth), I felt less depressed and at first it seemed to help me feel like I could deal with the everyday demands, and had lots of energy.But all it did was cause more havoc & financial problems etc.. Thanks to my daughter I have been clean again for 9-1/2 months. I have also had MRSA (Staph-Infection) in my system for about 1 yr now .It started in my blood streem and then into my lungs.I am still testing positive with it but it seems to be laying dormant I dont no if Ill ever be rid of it. The antibiotics caused gastronial problems. everything just became to be to much for me to handle. It thru me into a major depression etc.This time I had to take time off work and got into therapy. I am Seeing a Psychiatrist, and was put on a mood stableizer for anxiety and depression. Many of my friends dont no how to cope or deal with me. And avoid me. I have one girlfriend that has stayed by me and, a guyfriend who has not let me down although he's a truckdriver and on the road alot. We talk on the phone alot if i need a shoulder to cry on. I feel as if I'v burned out my family although they still support me. And no matter what have always been there for me.I thought it would be good for me to talk with others who may be going through some of the same things, and it helps me to help others. I know Im not alone. I just want to have some peace within my life.
food/grocery clerk for a major chain in S.Calif, Im ADHD/& recently have shown signs of bipolar, I am in treatment for depression, & anxiety. In the past I would just self medicate myself then about 16 years ago I entered a rehab my drug of choice was alcohol I did well for several years but still battled with depression etc.But was never treated for it. A few years ago I started using (Meth), I felt less depressed and at first it seemed to help me feel like I could deal with the everyday demands,
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Interests
when Im not depressed, I like to 4x4 I have a 4wheel jeep.I love to swim, jetski, ride 4x4quads, paint. I am a outdoorsy girl.I live in the high desert in S.Calif.I love spending time with my 2 daughters and family, as much as possible we all live about 3 or 4 hr away from each other. They all have thier own lives.
when Im not depressed, I like to 4x4 I have a 4wheel jeep.I love to swim, jetski, ride 4x4quads, paint.
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I’m With You
i just came back to say hi?
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I’m With You
i miss you girl your my best friend..........call me
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Thanks Kat!!! Hey I have ADD I know about the thought thing LOL.
Ray of Sunshine
Sunday hugs-how are you?
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Close Depression Supporters
ADHD/BP Depression/Anxiety- In therapy, on oxazepam. 9-1/2 months clean from Meth
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- It makes me not want to leave my room or bed makes myeyes swollen red etc my friends avoid me cant work had to go out on stress leave
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- alking to a therapist helps, and my mom and family always listen and try to give me hope its hard to find people that really want to listen because they dont unrstand and it brings them down to so the avoid you.mostly i try writing in a journal how i feel it helps release my anger etc so i dont act on my negative thoughts & do something stupid or hurt either myself or someone else
- Serax Somewhat Helpful
- keeps my anxiety down helps me sleep at night.Im able to get out of bed along with Im pushing myself to get out and do things although im not ready to go back to wk yet I might ust pull a nasty customer across the counter and choke them. Im looking for a place where i can swim that i can afford like a aquatics therapy place i do feel better when im outside or doing something physical. but the meds make me tired I take 10mg in the morning 10mg if needed in the afternoon 20mg at bedtime
Close ADHD / ADD
in recovery for ALCOHOL HAVE 16 YR THEN CHANGED ADDICTION A COUPLE OF YRS AGO TO METH I NOW HAVE 10 MONTHS CLEAN AGAIN. I RECENTLY WAS DIOGNOSED WITH ADHD/ANXIETY/DEPRESSION AND SIGNS OF BP.IAM ON MEDS NOW AND IS HELPING . BUT IM ALSO FINDING WAYS TO RETHINK MY ATTITUDE AND BEHAVIORS.
Treatments
- Research Working / Worked
- KNOWLEDGE HAS BROUGHT ANSWERES TO THE CHAOTIC LIFE IHAVE BEEN LIVING.NO SIDE EFFECTS TO READING OR LEARNING
- Serax Working / Worked
- SEEMS TO HELP WITH ANXIETY. IM NOT AS DEPRESSED AND IM NOT CRYING ALL THE TIME.
- Wellbutrin Too Soon to Tell
- DONT KNOW YET I JUST STARTED TAKING IT , WHICH MEANS I WONT SEE THE EFFECTS FOR A FEW WEEKS
