Journal

If you ask me it is possible to be married and die of lonlinedd. I pray to God almost every night to just let me die. I tried to do it but I couldn't. I almost swallowed all my pills then I stopped. I know that if I do this I will go to hell. I wish God would hear me and just let my sorry butt die!!!! I can't take anymore.  I'm only human,

Again someone wrote me and asked didn't I find the friend thing "artificial" and I have to  say no I don't for the simple fact it's for support. I don't expect everyone on my face book or Myspace to come running over andd partying. It is just fo talking, blogging and letting some feelings out so............ No I don't because just talking sometimes is "friendship" enough... Please get the fact that I live in the real world!... Later days, Kay