blissfallen90's Journal

I just don't know what I'm gonna do right now.
My boyfriend of 6 months called me this afternoon. He got some girl pregnant and he didn't want me to be mad?! I asked him how far along she was... a month.
I hate him. I hate him for making me do this. I hate him because instead of just cutting.. I slit myself and I slit myself bad.
My arms are gashed from my wrists to my elbows. I can see the veins... I can see the blood pulsing...
I'm so stupid. Why would I trust him?! Why did I let myself do this again?
I think I need to go to the hospital.
I think I'm dying.
Yet, somehow I don't want to go. I want to sit here and die.
But I have to be here for my kids. I need to b here for them, but they're the only things keeping me here. They're what's going to make me get into my car and drive to the hospital.

I'm dying...


Raine.