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thelittlethingsgivey 
1:55am, July 10, 2009
A LOT HAS CHANGED, AND THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER. I AM GOING TO SEE THE PSYCHIATRIST AT THE UW NEXT WEEK TO GET AN EVALUATION TO SEE IF THERE ARE SOME BETTER MEDICATIONS WE CAN PUT ME ON FOR THE BI POLAR. I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS, AS I HAVE BEEN WAITING 4 MONTHS TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST THERE.
I AM STILL DEALING WITH THE LOAN COMPANIES. I AM HOLDING UP PRETTY GOOD FOR ALL I HAVE BEEN THROUGH. I KNOW IN THE END EVERYTHING WILL BE OK.
MY SERVICE ANIMAL AND I HAVE BONDED A LOT OVER THE PAST 5 MONTHS I HAVE HAD HIM. I BASICALLY TAUGHT HIM EVERYTHING, HIS COMMANDS, POTTY TRAINED HIM, ETIQUITE, AND HAVE GOTTEN HIM SOCIALIZED. HE HAS GONE TO THE MALL, THE POLICE STATION, THE DR. OFFICE, CHURCH, NUMEROUS GROCERY STORES, EVEN 7-11 WHICH WE BOTH SECRETLY HATE.
I AM BECOMING MORE AWARE OF MY SURROUNDINGS, AND OF OTHER PEOPLE. MY ANXIETY HAS GOTTEN A LITTLE BIT BETTER, I HAVE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. FINALLY I AM DOWN TO 200LBS, NOT BAD CONSIDERING MY WEIGHT A YEAR AND A HALF AGO WAS 260ISH. I GOT MY CHOLESTEROL CHECKED, AND SOME OTHER STUFF. I LEARNED THAT MY CHOLESTEROL WHICH WAS REALLY HIGH A YEAR OR TWO AGO IS NOW NORMAL, ACTUALLY EVERYTHING ON THE REPORT WAS NORMAL, SO I AM DEFINATELY DOING SOMETHING RIGHT.
MY BIGGEST OBSTACLE I AM FACING RIGHT NOW IS MY BI POLAR. I HAVE BEEN MAKING FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE LATELY WHO ARE NOT MANIC, WHO ARE NORMAL BECAUSE I LIKE STABILITY, AND I HAVE FOUND IN THE PAST THAT MOST OF THE PEOPLE I WAS FRIENDS WITH WHO HAD ISSUES LIKE ME, HAD FOR THE MOST PART WAY MORE ISSUES THAN ME, AND I TRY TO STAY AWAY FROM OTHER PEOPLES DRAMA. I GET ENOUGH OF THAT FROM MY SERVICE DOG, AND HE IS MY CUTE LITTLE MINI DRAMA, THOUGH HE IS FAR FROM SMALL.
THERE IS A LOT I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IN THE NET FEW YEARS, FOR NOW I AM MANAGING THE BEST I CAN. I AM NOT BITCHING BECAUSE LIFE COULD ALWAYS BE MUCH WORSE, I JUST KEEP COUNTING MY BLESSINGS, AND IGNORE ALL THE HATERS OUT THERE, SO I GUESS LIFE IS GOOD, NOT PERFECT, MORE DECENT THOUGH THAN IT EVER WAS.
