Journal

My youngest son (17) just told me he doesn't believe in GOD and that knocked me for a loop. He is baptized, but he must have faith to be saved!  Yesterday when the subject came up he said it's his choice to not believe. I have never done enough to give him the religion he needs and now his spirit might pay the price for my failures as a mother and Christian. He said he's not saying there isn't a GOD but that there isn't proof of one. I said I've seen the proof when his brother lived from an accident that should have killed him and we prayed and prayed over his bedside but Dax said he was just lucky. And me- being the fantastic Christian that I am -wanted to box his ears!!!! I am soooo ashamed and sad and desperate,