lisa1235's Journal

first weekend alone since the breakup..i've got 2 work in the morning and cant stop mourning something thats probably not even worth a second thought..i just feel RAW...it freakin sucks sooooo bad right now..i know this too shall pass but its so rough going threw it..he called me earlier and told me he pawned his big screen tv to pay his friends gas bill and theres no electricity in the house but they were at the liquor store ....made a lot of sense????..at least to him..i cant believe im even still talking to him...i have a long ways to go to get healthy in the head at least emotionally..that a big difference in me today than the way i use to be today im able 2 see my part in things..its not his fault he's scewed up its mine for screwing with him..lol..i feel a little better..this journaling really works getting it all out..i going to try and go 2 sleep ..hope this idea worked...just a vent.