lisa1235's Journal

i've been struggling for months to get resolve from this HELL of a relationship i've been in..when he moved back up here and how much he wanted he and i to have this life together i was blown away thinking''this was it''..once agian in my life another relationship has turned into a ordeal..if anyones been keeping up with it as u know he relapsed in june and it has just been a burden on me..trying to support and distance myself at the same time..its horrible..he got locked up 4 driving and got certified to the high court yesterday..the same day i completed my core compentancy to  get on the salon floor and trust me IT WAS A LOT of testing,sacrafice and hard work to get there and instead of being able to share my joy of  my achievement all i can get is a whole bunch of guilt for getting my life together while POOR him is going to jail..he is really putting a bunch of pressure on me to help..its really discouragiung and i need to vent because i feel like me head and heart is about to explode in this turmoil..i dont know why the God of my understanding put all this in my path but im trying my best to do the right things in it.. its just exhausting at times.. and today is one of them days..i really dont have any answers to give him because he still doesnt want to admit he has a problem its so fustrating..thanks 4 letting me vent..