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lisaj7768 
7:31am, May 5, 2009
I just had to "write" some stuff down. First of all, those of you who are out there wondering, since my Dad is sick, all diets are off! I really shouldn't do that, but I'm too involved with my Dad right now to think about everything I put in my mouth, let alone write it down. Plus, I've been so stressed out, I've been eating non-stop! And I know it's because of stress, and I kno9w I shouldn't do it, considering how big I am. But right now isn't a good time for me. I mean hell, I've said it before, now I can eat whatever I want, when I want and as much as I want! Maybe I should just get over it and come to the realization that I'm fat, and I'm going to be fat for the rest of my life. I mean the new trend in this country is to be obese! Hell, I was so ahead of the times! Haha! That's actually not that funny! I don't know! I'm just tired of diets that don't work. I'm tired of my doctor telling me I'm obese. I'm tired of my Mother taking me clothes shopping then bitching about what size I wear! My Mother is obsessed with my weight. Still, to this day, she tries to get me on the scale when I come over just "so you know how big you're getting!" I know how big I am,. thank you! I'm reminded everyday. Like when I get on the bus and I take up more than one seat. Or when I go to the movies or to a ball game and I have to sit in thopse little seats...why can't they make them just a teesy bit wider? I know I'd be alot more comfortable! Ok, I'm done venting now!
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Get my weight under 200
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Current Weight (KGs)
90
Body Mass Index (BMI)
32.9
waist circum. (inche)
53
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Fit into my Black Jeans!
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Comments
Hang in there dear. Focus on your dad and your family and your emotional health and well-being first. Like you said, it's stressful times now. Make healthy eating choices when you can. Don't beat yourself up when you don't. And don't worry about the word "diet" right now.
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