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lisaj7768 
7:31am, May 5, 2009
Hello! It's been a while since I've written anything in here! It's been a long week with my Dad and everything! I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers everyone has given me and my Dad. So, once again, thank you!
So I lost another 2lbs this last week. That makes 5lbs total. Woo hoo 5 lbs! That's all! 5 little pounds! God this is going SLOW! Plus my back is getting worse and so are my hips. My knees buckled now 3 times when I've stood up. Once, after the knees buckled, I couldn't walk...my knees were like rubber...like they couldn't support my weight. It scared the hell out of me! What if that was permanent? What if one day, I couldn't get up? Couldn't hold myself up? Stuck in bed or having to use a wheelchair for the rest of my life?
I guess I'm just frustrated withthis whole new "food program". It's so restrictive and I ffeel deprived. I feel like giving up. I mean it would be easier to just stay fat! I could eat what I want, when I want and as much as I want! And I don't have to exercise. Of course, theres a down side to staying fat. You can't run, you can't keep up with ypur friends, you're always short of breath and you get winded doing the simplest of things...like getting out of bed! You have to wear big clothes that aren't very cute. Your food bill is HUGE!I could go on!
Well, it's bedtime for me!
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*hugs*
You and your dad are in my thoughts, this must be such a rough time for you!
But don't give up! 5 pounds is better than nothing :) It's still a step in the right direction, you are slowly, healthy and surely getting there. You have such willpower and strength, I am so in awe of you :)
I hope that sleep and rest have made you feel a little better!
Have a good week!
*hugs*
AnneSophie86
I know it is hard to keep working on your goal with your dad being sick, but please try to stick with it. I am in a wheelchair right now, due to an amoutation, and while I deal with it, you don't want to make it a way of life because of weight issues. Also, every 10% of your body weight that you reduce has the potential to drastically reduce your chances of diabetes, and all of its horrible complications. So, thanks those 5 pounds for leaving, and rejoice in your success. It will get easier again, after you pass each plateau.
LindaPoet