lisaj7768's Journal

Hi everyone! It's been a while since I posted anything in here!  But today is the day. This is probably the most painful entry I've ever had to type!

So my Dad has been sick for a while and last week he went to the Dr to have more tests run. I actually found out he was sick from the man who bought my Gramma's house! So, I call my Dad to see what's up and he said he had a Dr appointment that night for them to run more tests. So then he called Friday and said he didn't have the results back and as soon asd he knows what's going on, he would call and let me know!

So I'm sitting at my friends restaurant yesterday and my phone rings and it's my Dad. I knew I was about to hear some bad news, I just didn't know how bad. He said he just got out of the Dr's office and I was the first call he made. He told me the Dr. said he had Stage IV Pancreatic Cancer! Stage IV is pretty damn serious! My Dad is dying and theres nothing I can do! I feel so hopeless! And he sounded so old on the phone...like he had aged 20 years overnight! I can't picture my Dad as a frail weak man. He's always been "Big Dave", the obnoxious guy. The funny one! Not the sick one.

All my problems seem to pale in comparison at the moment. I mean who cares if I lose any more weight or not! My weight doesn't matter right now! Although I do have to be careful or when this is all over, I'm gonna weigh 500lbs! No seriously...I have the potential to eat my way to 500lbs, easily! But it's not about me. My poor Daddy! I can't do this anymore. I'll post another entry as soon as I'm able!