lisaj7768's Journal

I was wondering if all men in the world expect us women to have webcams! Three different men yesterday asked me if I had a webcam! My house is way too dirty for a webcam!

So, today is my second day without sugar or flour! I actually think I did pretty good yesterday. I wasn't even tempted! But I know that temptation could be right around the corner. I have to be very careful! But so far, no cravings or anything! I know I'll have some and I'm dreading that day! But, I'll get thru it...outreach calls! Gotta start to learn how to make those! I'm sure I'll be needed to make them in the next few days.

I'm lucky. I have a tremendous amount of support. My friend, Debbie, is wonderful! She's been there from the beginning. She's also always been honest with me too. She said something to me the other day that really made me think. I don't really remember the conversation, but I tink we were talking about pur friend, Rondee. But Debbie said "It's like how we've been waiting years for you to do something about your weight." Talk about hitting home! I really do appreciate her honesty! But you know, I started thinking about that statement. My friends wanted to see me get healthy, but they knew it wasn't going to happen til I was ready. My friends were waiting for me to do something about my weight! I've been overweight for so damn long, that my friends were waiting for me to do something about my weight! Damn! I can't believe what I've done to myself and to them. So, to all my friends who read this, I'm sorry.