TrudyHarper's Journal

Well it's been almost a month now since my grandfather past away. I saw the witch and it took all my might not to say anything to her. She had the nerve to say hello. But I just kept on walking. His apple trees that we got in rememberance of him (since we have no where to go and visit him) are doing well. We made our own place to go to talk to him. That is sad that we had to do that. I still can't believe that she had the nerve to creamate him even before the funeral.

I'm also nervous because me 5 year old daughter with CPP starts kindergarden in a few days. I'm so scared for her. But so far I think she is okay with it. But I can see I'll have my problems with her becuase she thinks she only has to go when she wants to.

Then also I found out about my 15 year old son that is starting high school smokes pot. I'm still in shock over that one.

Then I find out that my husband's brother is out of jail. He is just a waste case. He is no good. All he does is cause this family more problems. I wish that he would just keep to himself. He has only been out now 3 days now and he has called for something since day 1. I told my husband that I married him and not his brother. I shouldn't have to rearrainge my schedule because he needs a ride here and there. I will NOT do it.

Does it get any better? Will it ever get better? I hope so but I'm loosing faith. I feel like I'm going to flip out. Why does life have to be so difficult? I don't understand people always told me that god never gives us more than we can handle. I think I'm at my limit. I hope so any ways.