I am 33 years old, married, with 2 furry sons (my kitties). I work in Commission-based Sales and hate it as I don't handle stress in a healthy way. I hope to get a sign soon, as to the direction I should take and where I should be going, and what I should be interested in, and who I should be, and who I should be helping.....I think too much. I am very much into the mystic and the psychic unknown. I often times play games with myself to make simple decisions, so yes....you can eat the cookie, but can I have your fortune, please? I'm a weirdo. I think it would kick butt to be a Ghost Hunter on TAPS sometimes. I don't know what I want to be yet, and what career will bring me and others joy and make my place in this world better yet. This is a big issue for me. Something else about me..um.....I wish I could think in the "grey area." To me, often times, everything is just BLACK OR WHITE. There is no in between. It's like, well, I planned not to have any wine, but since I already had a glass and broke my rule, I might as well kill the whole bottle. That kind of thinking, I'd like to change. That's it for now. I need to update this later to make it well-rounded, but for now this rambling is going to have to do. I am a very sensitive person who needs to grow some balls and thicker skin without becoming a complete monster.
I am 33 years old, married, with 2 furry sons (my kitties). I work in Commission-based Sales and hate it as I don't handle stress in a healthy way. I hope to get a sign soon, as to the direction I should take and where I should be going, and what I should be interested in, and who I should be, and who I should be helping.....I think too much. I am very much into the mystic and the psychic unknown. I often times play games with myself to make simple decisions, so yes....you can eat the cookie, but
I love walking and reading books. I always read 2 books at one time and switch off and on between them. One is always a self-help book, the other, fiction (a sanctuary from my everyday hellish life in this cruel world). I used to love to paint(acrylic on canvas) but it is such a pain in the ass to pull all of the stuff out and make a place to do it as my apartment is small. I have made some pretty impressive abstract pieces; I only do abstract stuff (my paintings look like a preschooler's Sunday project). Whatever keeps you mind out of the dumps. I love cooking, but only when I drink, so I guess I won't be doing a lot of cooking. I like Retail Therapy and getting something new sometimes. I also love eating all kinds of ethnic foods and experiencing new restaurants. That is it for now.
I love walking and reading books. I always read 2 books at one time and switch off and on between them.
May 15, 2009 10:25pm
i had a bit of divine intervention today. what a day! thank you god.
May 15, 2009 7:36am
to this lifetime.
i need to go out and do. I don't want to regret the things i didn't do.
April 23, 2009 11:53am
I feel a breakdown coming. I thought I was doing fine, but I am back! I need to be a happy person and stay sober.
I need to be …
December 31, 2008 12:04pm
I have been sober, sober, sober for about 2 weeks.
oh, i will stop trying to zoom in then anata. you need a basket motif.
ok, you can go surfing with me then. we can travel the globe and rob banks. keanu reaves will chase us and eventually shoot us.
is dat really you surfing?
that explains why you are so weird. i am a green bucket.
hi. no, that's just my friend on here is vegan.
Progress
35 %
severe anxiety and depression for 14 years since i was 19 years old. ocd defense mechanisms sometimes off and on.
severely depressed and anxious for 14 years, since i was 19 years old. lots of bad impulsive choices, ups and downs, loss of friends and family, completely lost and hoping to get it together soon.
drinking off and on for 15 years. child of an alcoholic.
I am very shy and insecure when I don't drink
I drive myself mad with web MD
