Journal

I just updated a blog I keep. One of my hobbies that I can do without my hands/arms/shoulder hurting is enter sweepstakes, and instant wins. So after I finish this entry that's likely where I am headed. To enter.

The blog that I just updated pertains to things I have won, and I have to admit I have been very blessed to win some wonderful things. And the other blog is for a tween/teen virtual world. <Im leaving site names out, I'm not real familiar with the rules here, and don't want to break any.>

I did manage to get some laundry done, AND folded. Today I did it alone, except for having the kids put it away. I'm really just plain tired of feeling bad all around. Typing that just brings tears to my eyes.

Maybe in a bit of time, I can think of a goal or two to post and ramble about. One of my first is to learn to navigate this site, and figure out what I can, and can not do. I'd like to REALLY figure out the chat feature.

I took my medicine, and need to head for bed very soon ... my Chihuahua, Teeny is cuddled beside me, and so is Kandy she's a boston terrier, pomeranian mix. Both are my babies. The other 2 dogs went to bed with my daughter.

I have a heat patch on my shoulder for now, and took some ibuprofen, and it's just not  helping.

I have a lot of things on my mind tonight. One of the many is that I'm afraid my Dr. is not lyme literate, and I'll finish this round of Doxy, and they'll retest, I'll get a false negative, and still have the aches, and joint pain. And they'll just blow off my symptoms. Not having insurance doesnt leave me with much of an option to make sure I'm getting the treatment I need to get rid of this crap.

I guess that's all my ramblings for the night. If you're reading this, Howdy. 

A week ago, or 2 weeks. I don't remember. I woke up and my shoulder, and elbow hurt. My hips, knees, ankles, and wrist ached.

I tolerated it for a bit then went to the Dr.'s office. I have a hefty history of headaches, and migraines that generally go from the back of my neck, up around to my forehead. I suck with short term memory, and have for awhile now. Most recently I can't remember names, or will cross 2 peoples names. 

I usually have great spelling, but am finding I can't think of some words. Or mispell things that are so simple to me. 

Anyway, Friday, Sept. 19th is when the Dr's office called and said I do have Lyme Disease. I cried a bit, mostly from fear, and not knowing what I'm facing. I STILL am not sure what I'm up against. 

I'd like to figure out how long I have had this. 

How long am I going to have this? 

What is my body going to endure?

Will I have the money to pay for medicines I'll need?

So, here I sit ... learning to naviage this site, and wondering. Maybe I'm worrying. Not sure.