Journal Entry for August 10, 2009
August 10, 2009 6:26pm
sorry i haven't journaled in a VERY long time, things have been happening. well, i had therapy today, did EMDR and talked a bit. i feel sooo …
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rdf90 
9:24pm Saturday
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About Me
rdf90
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About Me
You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. ---------------------------------------------------------------------- I WILL NOT ACCEPT ANY MALE FRIEND REQUESTS
You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can
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Interests
music, reading, watching movies from the 80's, gilmore girls is my obsession, i love learning about the medical field and it is my passion
music, reading, watching movies from the 80's, gilmore girls is my obsession, i love learning about the
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Journal Entry for June 21, 2009
June 21, 2009 9:27pm
here's a small update. i don't care anymore!!! people on here can hate me, oh well. i wont report him and i don't care what you have to …
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may trigger- nightmare last night
June 6, 2009 5:21pm
had a nightmare last night. i was walking with jordan my little brother around what looked like my old high school. then these black guys in …
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HUG HUG HUG! Sorry you are feeling bad. HUG
Prayer
i pray u feel better
Ray of Sunshine
Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you & here's some sunshine to warm your heart. :) If you need anything just message me.
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how are you doing? just wanted to let you know that i'm back on ds again.last time we had a chat things were kinda grim. hope you're doing better now. get in touch with me soon. i'd love to hear from you. take care of yourself for all those who love you.
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Hope you're doing well....Sorry I've been out of touch. I was admitted to a phosptial a few days after we last chatted, and was there for a month. I'm doing a lot better now....I learned a lot of good coping skills and finally got my meds straightened out. Anyway, I'm not online much anymore but I do hope things are going well for you.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
Open Panic Attacks
i get them, but not as often anymore
Treatments
- Meditation Considering
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Eating Disorders
Type: Anorexiai started controlling my food intake because i felt like i had no control over my body, i try not to do this anymore...i also purge sometimes and try not to anymore
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- my friend's sometimes help me realize i don't need to starve myself to gain control
Open Sexual Abuse
look at journal entry 11-24-08 for more info......
Treatments
- EMDR Too Soon to Tell
- Group Therapy Considering
- Leave Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- i play music to get my mind off of it
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- nobody usually cares
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionTreatments
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- only have support from friends..family doesn't even care
- Writing Not Working
Open Self-Injury
i cut to feel pain
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Female Sexual Issues
rdf90 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open War in Iraq
3 of my 5 brothers have or still are in Iraq fighting...one is leaving soon and will be gone for another 6 months
Open Rape
rdf90 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Sports Injuries
broke my foot, tore my meniscus two times, lateral muscle release, torn ligament, sprained shoulder twice, condra malacia in both knees and a stress fracture
Treatments
- Ice Pack Working / Worked
- sometimes works, doesn't last though
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- done it many times
Open Incest Survivors
doesn't even matter
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- really hard to talk about
- Writing Not Working
- i can never find the words to describe how i feel
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Treatments
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- Leave Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- i tune out their screaming and it makes me feel calmer
- Writing Working / Worked
- i used to write down how i felt and how angry i was and it really helped a lot
Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
i never knew i had it until i came on this site
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Groups
Incest Survivors
Triggers Panic Attacks And Flashbacks
Child Abuse Survivors
Music Makes Me Feel So Much Better
MoviesTV that Trigger
sexual abuse for teenagers 16-19
Supporters of victims of sexual abuse
Child Abuse
AntiPervert Militia
Suicide Lookout
war against child molesters
Angels.
Large Families
Love for Jack3!!!!
Any time you Need a Friend
OUR LOVE FOR CLOUDSTRIFE!!!
Start Living TODAY.
A For Real Depression Support Group
PTSD for the Abused
GrowingTHROUGHGrief
