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serenityseeker 
9:52am, October 12, 2009
Not much to say, just that I did it again. I am making no more promises to anyone including myself. All I can do is go 1 day at a time. Thanks for all the support in the past and I hope in the future. Sorry to let people down
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Hi all
Got up early this morning to pouring rain and after about 2 hours it turned into great huge, fat, fluffy flakes of snow. You know the kind that just barely covers the trees and grass. Looks pretty. Winter however, is my least favorite season. Fear of falling and now that I'm older the cold bothers me more. When I was young, I loved the cold weather.
Got my new walker on Thursday. I am going to practice walking in the hallways of my building to start. Will build up stamina over time. Not rushing, I am so grateful to have this device to help me.
Have had a very quiet week, on different days my daughter and grandson came and visited and spent the night. Went to the Dr. Thursday and got a seasonal flu shot. Doctor told me he hadn't seen me looking so good since he knew me. That made me feel even better. I know it is all about the change we made last month in my antidepressants.
I am on Day 150 today...that feels super too!! I have been really blessed of late. No major drama or things I am struggling to handle. Have not worried about anything. Course there is never enough money to get to the end of the month but at least it is being used responsibly again.
Got my computer and stuff all moved to my new workstation and I am so enjoying it. It is a little large for my small space but I feel like I have lots of room to do what I want to do.
I am happy to see my DS friends have been doing well lately. Gams I don't know where you get your energy. You too Deb, with Jordan and work and all...good job.
I always love Mike's sharing with the newcomers even when he is not having a good day.
All the rest of you too, nobody seems to be in a struggle of late, except for the newcomers.
We welcome you all into our little family. Please come often, daily if possible and read journals and discussions. It won't take very long for you to find every one else has been through the same emotions, pain, confusion as you. We have been able to cope one day at a time with support from each other. That is the real secret, it is almost impossible to do this recovery business alone.
Wishing you all a great 24 and I will take one for myself.
Blessings
Mary
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Hope you stay warm Seren. When I was a little girl we lived where it snowed each winter. While I like to see it now and then, I've gotten spoiled on the warmer climate. Glad you have family to come and stay over night with you. That is really, really nice. Take care, do as you can with your new walker... I think consistency is the key. Building stamina is a great thing. {{hugs}} on a Saturday. debs
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Hi Mary..Sorry for 'being late in commenting. am working nights.. ''I hear you on the ''squeaze at the end of the month. Pensions.. yeppers.. end of month 'first of month ''sameo.. and ''when they pay early.....YIkeeees. makes the month Longer..
Energy.. LIke you all about building stamina .
Am Blessed to be able to continue working in the Health care field.. in private care. lots of us doing it to meet needs.. and like YOU "I disliked being poor 2 weeks before end of month ; but ''the reason for that was.. I paid all my bills when the cheques arrived.. lol so it 'was my choice ..Not always a 'pleasure.. but a secure feeling though..
Am Grateful I learned when my kids were small how to 'make a zillion ''meals out of lean hamburg.. lol.
And the 'best is ''my man 'loves my dishes. or casseroles which my sons hated..
'Glad you have your new set of Wheels.. ''walking ''apparatus.. ''whatever 'iffen it gets you to point a .then to b. Amen.
Love yah Take care.. Sandra..
Cold gloomy day here in Calgary...flurries expected and its cold -7. Winter is my least favorite season. I don't hate it but it can get very gloomy and I am a person who seems to need lots of sunshine.
Day 137...am in a bit of shock that I am in the 3 digits...very happy though.
Not much happening in my personal life. Just been hanging out at home. Today my daughter is coming over and that will be great, we have been getting along really well. Knock wood, don't want to jinx it. lol
I see nobody is journalling much this week. It is our Thanksgiving this weekend...it is never as big a deal in Canada as for you guys in the states, don't know why there is that difference.
Thinking about Christmas shopping...it will be here before we know it.
I have been trying to think of a home based business that I could do part time, but no good ideas as yet.
I am getting a walker on Wednesday, so I hope to be able to get out a bit more. Walking used to be something I didn't even think about...now it is a big deal. Use it or lose it they say...and I don't want to lose it.
Well my DS friends, I really don't have much to say, but just wanted to check in.
Blessings
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I need to get back in shape as well...thx for the use it or lose it comment!
Out cool rainy weather is just beginning here...is that -7C or -7F? Brrrrrrrrrrrr either way! Stock up on the hot cocoa time for me!
Congrats on 137 days GF! Over 4 mos...WTG!!!
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WTG on 137 days! That's wonderful! Yes, it's been slow here lately, I hope that is because everyone is so busy and not struggling. The weather is getting colder too, and rainy also. It's that time of the year. Hang in there and keep up the great work. Peace and Love, Patty
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BRR..it's cold here too, but not that cold. We got about 5 inches of snow on Saturday, was melted by the afternoon. Just read your last few journals, you have a great outlook... you have really accomplished a lot and should be proud of yourself. WTG on rewarding yourself with a new workstation- and btw- put it together just like you stop gambling.. ONe day at a time. LOL.
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Mary.. WTg with 'adding a new 'apparatus to aid in walking. Yeppers ''that is so true in my experiences. If we don't use it 'we lose it. lol. Amen sistah. Like any skill I found 'when I honed up on it it came back.
When I look back to those first few months.. Wowsers. So 'any day I think I can't .. when I look back 'I know I can.. with help HP..Amen..
I am working nightshift. so am remiss on DS.. but have 'kept my committment to SF. daily.
WTg on 'those recovery days linking together.
love yah Sandra..
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Mary. I am not dissapointed. I do not feel let down.
Pick up ..Dust Off. try again .
Be well. love ya SAndra.
gams5
Oh sweetie, you didn't let us down. I am right were you are now. I slipped after 14 months! Take my hand and lets start this recovery again. We can do this. We can do it together and with everyone here at DS. Forgive yourself and start fresh. Peace and Love. Patty
mrsfroggie
Hi Mary,
I notice that your last journal entry was Oct 24.........today is Nov 09......that's about 16 days....... do you think that you might have neglected your recovery for too long a stretch of time? Did this contribute to the relapse?......just something you might wish to consider........
I agree with gams.....pick up, dust off.....back to work.
Huggggs
eastwester
You are here, so glad you are. All anyone has is one day, today. So, I am with you on "all I can do is go 1 day at a time." Me too. Here is a little something I heard this weekend that I thought worthy of hanging on a bathroom mirror:
Today... "Start where you are, use what you have, and do what you can."
{{{hugs}}} to you Seren, debs
JordansMomDebby
Deb, you are right this is worth hanging on the bathroom mirror, Mary you are just like the rest of us, we must take recovery one day at a time. Dust yourself off and start over. You can do it.
Hugs Steph
Steph55
You have not let anyone else down. Most (if not all) of us around here have had many struggles before it finally clicks. The important thing is that you get back into your recovery. Think of this as a little speed bump....don't let it block your path. Forgive yourself and move forward...know that you are not alone in this.
purplecat
If you can do it for 154 days you can do it again for one more day and start over. We are with you.
artistic1