mattswife's Journal

Halloween freakin sucked for me!We went to my dads house and those of you who know me well know that we have a rocky relationship.The other day I told my step mom about some of the problems that me and matt have been having.I thought she was somebody I could vent to and I wouldnt have to worry about any problems to follow but I guess I was wrong.They are not exactly the cleanest people because they have lots of animals in their small house and it smells.They have rats,ferrets, and dogs that shed horribly.I have rats also and a dog but theres a big difference in the degree of cleanliness in my house and theirs. They have a black dog that sheds worse than any dog I have ever seen and the hair always ends up caked to my 19 month olds face.All of their animal try to lick her sippy cup and when my oldest son says something about it they get snippy. I havent talked to my dad in 7 yrs and I just started talking to him again back in March.The first couple of  we went down there they were friendly and inviting. Now every time we go down there they get snippy more and more every time. She had halloween night all planned out for us.We had to go to 2 churchs and then to a subdivision.Now me and matt believe in god and all but going to church on halloween night to  trick or treat is not our cup of tea. She was introducing us to everybody and it was kind of embarrassing. We dont talk to people we dont feel comfortable around and she thinks because they are her friends well get along. Me and Matt were already kind of in a bad mood because earlier in the day they were really rude to Matt.They made soup with meat and veggies and matt is a meatatarian.He doesnt eat veggies at all ever and my dad basically said if he didnt eat it they were going to have words. Well this was totally uncalled for but I told matt to try it at least and that I wouldnt make him go with me anymore.As the night wore on after all the embarassing and annoying things that happened I dont know that Ill be going down there anymore.They Get aggravated with my kids because they dont sit like little statues and they dont like matt because hes not the type of guy that they would have picked for me.The biggest problem with us going down there is we have a different type of lifestyle than they do and they try to push theres off on us. We cuss,matt drinks,we listen to icp,rob zombie,shinedown,

metallica,poison,etc.We go to demo derbies and mud runs on weekends and we argue in public.They are good church going people and they dont approve of my life.My brother and sister are still at the age where they have to go down there and they dont approve of them either.My mom has always been the type of person to let us speak our mind no matter who got pissed and my dad isnt like that. He laeft my mom when I was 15 and he is pretending to be somebody hes not. I dont get why he has to be so fake.He tells my step mom that he was always there for us and wants to sit and tell me that matts not good enough for me.Thats a complete load of bullshit.He was never there for us and he uses every body that he can.I am starting to think that opening the lines of communication between us again was a bad idea because all of our old problems are going to come up again and he doesnt want to admit the way he was to me and my bro and sis. We had a shitty childhood and he was abusive to me and my mom and he was never faithful to her.He has went and told my step mom otherwise and its like rubbing salt in an open wound for us.We have to listen to her sit there and act like hes so great and hes not and they want to sit and talk about my mom like shes the worst mom ever. Considering she almost died when we were little and she took care of us by herself I think we turned out ok. My stepmom could never have kids so she doesnt know what its like to be a full time parent and neither does my dad.We will never get along the way we should because we all have to many problems and he doesnt want to admit it. We are supposed to go down there for thanksgiving but i dont think were gonna go.I dont want to relive another halloween moment.