I could leave.......I could not
November 6, 2009 6:31pm
I have had many things happen in my lifetime, but the past 6 years have just been hard. Don't get me wrong, I know there are other people …
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michellegirl
1:25pm, May 15, 2009
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About Me
michellegirl
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About Me
mostly shy person that likes to draw and do anything with art. I have a step son who is my son. He is living with his father at this time in MO. It killed me to take him there this summer; but due to my serious issues and my mother's terminal illness, I thought it was for his best interest. Degree in Physics and trying to work on getting my engineering degree. I work with coding, problem solving, and training with a communications co. I have recently taken a leave for a short time.
mostly shy person that likes to draw and do anything with art. I have a step son who is my son. He is living with his father at this time in MO. It killed me to take him there this summer; but due to my serious issues and my mother's terminal illness, I thought it was for his best interest. Degree in Physics and trying to work on getting my engineering degree. I work with coding, problem solving, and training with a communications co. I have recently taken a leave for a short time.
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November 6
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michellegirl wrote a journal entry: I could leave.......I could not 6:31pm
I have had many things happen in my lifetime, but the past 6 years have just been hard. Don't get…
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michellegirl wrote a journal entry: Feeling the Blues..... 12:52am
I am not sure where I am anymore. I feel blue. I feel lost. I feel depressed. I feel Overwhelmed..........I…
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michellegirl turned 43 12:00am
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Feeling the Blues.....
November 6, 2009 12:52am
I am not sure where I am anymore. I feel blue. I feel lost. I feel depressed. I feel Overwhelmed..........I think the song …
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Darkness...Time Stops
August 28, 2009 1:40am
It is so dark. I have tried to run away from it, but still it is there. Overwhelming …
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My mom passed away
May 15, 2009 1:13pm
My mom passed away on May 7th. I got to be with her and talk to her and tell her that I loved her and it was ok to go. I watched her eyes …
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Now what?!
April 14, 2009 12:25am
Sometimes I think someone is just messing with me up there. Unfortunately, they were unable to do the procedure today due to problems with the …
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HEY SWEETIE!!!
CHOCOLATE ALWAYS HELPS.
MANY HUGS'N'LOVE COMING YOUR WAY,
NIECY
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Hopeing everything is going well with you. Hope to talk soon
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you are in my thoughts,I am aware of your Loss, I lost both of my paerents with in 1 year of eachother,Mom '03from an anyurismmarried 62 yearsdad in 04 gave-up after her demise
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Close Rape
My grandfather on my fraternal side was a convicted child molestors of several children. I have some memories of that coming back to me. I have been raped and kidnapped. After that, I was stalked and attacked again by the same man. I deal with him as a stalker and threat to me on a daily basis.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I have seen different therapist over the years without any progress. I am currently working with a therapist and pyschologist that work through the West Virginia University program that is helping vets that come back from Iraq with Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. Is it working? I can't really say that it is not working. I am still in the beginning phases, but it is refreshing to find a therapist that understands the full spectrum of my problems.
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- I found it hard to just have Rape Counseling without dealing with my other symptoms. I am now working with a therapist that works with all my issues and side effects.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I have been sexually molested as a child and attacked and raped, but I kept most of it at bay. I found that after having my boyfriend pass away, other close family members pass away, my mother's diagnosis with a terminal illness, having to take time off from my job to care for her that the stress took me to a level of PTSD that was unbearable. I have always suffered from some symptoms, but now they are amplified 500 times over.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- not working in the process of changing medication. It seemed to make me bang off the walls like I was speeding, my dreams worsened, and it did not seem to take affect on me.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I am seeing a therapist and a psychologist that work through the West Virginia University on a new process of PTSD. I do not have the name, but they are using it on the Vets that come back from Iraq so I am hopeful
- Zoloft Too Soon to Tell
- just starting this medication therapy and removing the Effexor so have no results at this time. I will say that I have headaches ever day from this change for the past week and I am hoping that changes soon.
Open Hepatitis C
My mother received a blood transfusion during a hysterectomy during the aids onset....They did not test for hepatitis at the blood banks. She has had a liver transplant...16 years now
Treatments
- Infergen Working / Worked
- it only brought my mothers hepatitis to a very low lever after several trials. At this time it is not being used.
- Interferon Working / Worked
- it only brought my mothers hepatitis to a very low lever after several trials. At this time it is not being used.
- Interferon, pegylated Somewhat Helpful
- it only brought my mothers hepatitis to a very low lever after several trials. At this time it is not being used.
- Liver Transplant Working / Worked
- She did have a liver transplant and has had the liver for over 16 years.
- Pegylated Interferon Somewhat Helpful
- it only brought my mothers hepatitis to a very low lever after several trials. At this time it is not being used.
- Ribavarin Somewhat Helpful
- Again, only worked in lowering the hepatitis, but it would return.
Open Organ Transplants
my mother had a transplant over 16 years ago for her liver
Treatments
- Prograf Working / Worked
- Yes this did work....I believe the called it FK when my mother got her transplant(it was still experimental
