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PhoenixRed 
6:47am, August 24, 2009
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About Me
PhoenixRed
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About Me
im a whirly heady mix of individuality bordering on eccentricity (which i now realise may be my mania) and a reclusive independent loner (the black dog of my depression) Iv been in the dark without a compass for a while single mother of 4, lover of all wisdom, champion of the underdog! compassionate, loving but not loved, empathetic, artistic and intuitive (obviously when it comes to others, hadnt a clue bout myself!) intelligent, deeply philosophical and ethically motivated I attempt every day to live by the serenity prayer: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
im a whirly heady mix of individuality bordering on eccentricity (which i now realise may be my mania) and a reclusive independent loner (the black dog of my depression) Iv been in the dark without a compass for a while single mother of 4, lover of all wisdom, champion of the underdog! compassionate, loving but not loved, empathetic, artistic and intuitive (obviously when it comes to others, hadnt a clue bout myself!) intelligent, deeply philosophical and ethically motivated I attempt every day to
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Interests
tattoo art; creativity of all sorts (art, design, hair), reading; mainly non-fiction esp biographies, film; esp gothic horror and disaster movies (altho those should be ignored at black times!) psychology esp what they so non-compassionately call 'abnormal' psychology, social and emotional psychology and linguistics...keeps me busy and the monsters at bay!
tattoo art; creativity of all sorts (art, design, hair), reading; mainly non-fiction esp biographies,
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Recent Activity
November 14
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PhoenixRed gave Zodi a hug 2:03pm
hope all is well - sorry i havent been around either to hug u back been on a bit of an up but alas no…
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Hugbook
Chocolate
like your tatoos
they are s feminine
my hubby wont let me get one
lol sis jan
I’m With You
We have very similar life experiences. I can so understand..health and happiness to you and your children-Xxxxx
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I’m With You
Hey Im tring to do that now I feel it will take sometime before things will change my spirit is there to fight thanks for ya comment sorry took so long to respond
Chocolate
I’m With You
your friendship is accepted.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
only recently realised that I may be a beeper (love that euphemism!) so Im going through the repeated steps of anger/denial/anger/ disbelief/anger/not quite made it to acceptance! waiting the long wait for psychDr maybe just mayb its not true at all??? (i no, i no, im stil in denial! Im fine theres nothing wrong with me its perfectly normal to switch moods within 10 minutes want to die monday morning only to feeel I can take on the world on by bedtime....)
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
i grew up (or at least survived) a emotional barren, physically abusive, verbally disencouraging home. Its not the high end of abuse but that underlying all pervasive neglect and lovlessness that shapes your mental state leaving you with low self worth/esteem and zero confidence and an inability to achieve success or love or maintain friendships. I left home at 14 looking to fill my empty heart with love - iv yet to achieve it - my neural networks seemed to be beyond fixing!
Treatments
Open Single Parenting
Im a single parent of 4 girls from 14 to 4 the last 2 are identical twins who have no contact with their dad. Im also single and have no support network of friends/ family which compounds the problem big time! I had a pretty shitty childhood lived with depression for many years (I now suspect I have Bipolar Disorder) but my philosophy is to stay positive and strong and take one day at a time - when thats too much 1 hour at a time or on reallly bad days make each minute better than the last one!
Open Twins, Triplets & More
I am a single mum of 5 yr old identical girl twins!
Open Anger Management
I have been angry for over 30 yrs but now I manage it with introspection, positive thinking and CBT. I have also turned my life long battle into something positive as I write and deliver anger management programmes to children and parents. There is life after the causes of pain expressed through anger!
