Haidey21Hollow's Journal

feeling somewhat suicidal again..i was great for so long then a ghost from my past appeared and now it's toying with me and i want nothing more then to end it..i would rather endure physical pain rather then emotional..every moment i take a breath i hate my life more and more..i met the love of my life..he makes me so happy but now because of this ghost i dont even want to love anymore..i dont want to live, love, eat, sleep, drink, cry...i just want to feel pain..i want to dull this emotional pull on me..i want to forget i want to live in a world where i am only alone...because my life as i know it is my own world of complete and utter isolation and solitude..someone please end my pain..someone please end this hurt...someone please......end my life