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Haidey21Hollow 
9:01pm, September 28, 2009
he fucking emotionally mentally and verbally abuses me..and he fucking thinks its okay!!! I mean im getting really fucking tired of all of this!!! i thought a father was suppose to love and treat his kids with love and warmth and respect!!! not this bullshit..not fucking yelling at me calling me names treating me like i dont matter!!!! ='[...im your fucking child!!! not some goddamn punching bag that you can just push around and treat like shit....im so fucking sick and tired of hurting like this and feeling like im just nothing to you...dad some days you make me wish i was never born...somedays i seriously wish i was dead...you fucking treat susans dog better then you treat YOUR OWN FUCKING KID...............i hate you...how can you even call yourself a fucking father?!!!!! i now know why athena and kreyg turned out the way they did!!! BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!! you fucking asshole!!!.....i cant take this anymore....i fucking cant im not strong enough to!!!!! you always fucking push me and punch me and shuve me down making me feel like im so small and stupid!!! 
...you make me think that i am...maybe i am better off dead....im really fucking tired of this........i respect u and treat you so well but you just shit all over me!!! i never give u lip and i do EVERYTHING i fucking can to please you!!!!!!!!!!!!......its times like now i really want to scream.......I FUCKING WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...you make me think that i am...maybe i am better off dead....im really fucking tired of this........i respect u and treat you so well but you just shit all over me!!! i never give u lip and i do EVERYTHING i fucking can to please you!!!!!!!!!!!!......its times like now i really want to scream.......I FUCKING WANT MY MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hello and I'm sorry you are in so much pain. I don't no your whole circumstances and why you struggle with your father. My daughter gets treated the same way from her dad, then she starts acting like him. I always try to tell her be better than him. He is a alcoholic and you can't change him. She doesn't live with him so its easier, she doesn't really do anyhting with him but use him for money. I don't no why your dad gets triggered and behaves like he does, are you respectful? Do you get defiant with your attitude? Or does he just have issues with something. Can you reach out to your mother? I wish I could help but stay strong and try to reach out for help, from someone. There is resources out there for you, weather its a runaway home where you can be safe, a shelter, there has to be some help out there for you. Do some research for yourself to get the help you need. kelly
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