Haidey21Hollow's Journal

Sometimes when I feel like this..I just want to run away and hide..Hide from the world and the cruelness of others..Its a small cry I shed but I just want to cry it all out..Is that alright with you?..Sometimes I feel like I'm a danger to myself..And a dangers to other..How am I suppose to hold this?..I'm tired of feeling this empty shell deep down inside where my heart use to be..I just wonder if I was ever happy..will I ever be?...

Sometimes..I get lost when I'm just thinking..Its the wrong time for something new..I just want someone to notice this is for real and not fake..I just wish that I could escape..when I read fairy tails I will admit I cry..Because I know fairy tails ARN'T TRUE...They will never come true..

Do people ever stop and listen? Do they ever take a look around? Can't they see that things are not okay..Theres more to everything then they're presented? When people finally see..They may be to late...

It hurts to feel so lonely..People can hurt that bad..I know some cant believe it but take it from someone who has been in the darkness for their whole life..With life comes pain,hurt,and death..Losing something or someone...It takes alot of toll on you..

Along the way of your life you'll come to alot of bumps,holes,hills, that you need to pass through..It'll be hard alot of the time and there will be times where you will think that you can't do it..That you cant make it..Just remember that you can do it..That you'll always someone to lend you a hand..Someone will always be watching for when you fall....

Just look up.....And there they'll be...

I havent been able to look up in a long time..There are many times where I think if I do everything will be okay and someone'll be there..But when I do..I just see blurrs..The heart stops beating friendly beats after awhile..It starts to beat less and less with each day that passes..The darkness yet again consumes what was once golden..

But nothing can stay golden for long...

-Haidey..