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About Me
MazTheDimReaper
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About Me
I'm Lola Mariella. I'm 17. I self harm.Pro ANA / MIA... I suffer from servere depression. I hate myself. I have mild ocd. I suffer from panic attacks. I'm terrified of clowns.. I'm a really good listener so if you ever feel you need someone to talk to no matter who you are I'll always be here to listen and do or say what I can to help. I have a Journal here on DS which Is more of a diary, Just so I can look back and read over what I have been thinking and how I have been feeling. Even though It's more of a personal thing than a blog, Feel free to read it if you would like to know a bit more about me. (: I'm going on a diet and I'm going to be blogging about my progress every day, If you want to see how I'm doing click the link below to my blog..x (:
I'm Lola Mariella. I'm 17. I self harm.Pro ANA / MIA... I suffer from servere depression. I hate myself. I have mild ocd. I suffer from panic attacks. I'm terrified of clowns.. I'm a really good listener so if you ever feel you need someone to talk to no matter who you are I'll always be here to listen and do or say what I can to help. I have a Journal here on DS which Is more of a diary, Just so I can look back and read over what I have been thinking and how I have been feeling. Even though It's
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Interests
Music. Singing. Dance. Art school. Guys. Girls. Clubbing. Partying. Fashion. Reading. Friends. Dieting.
Music. Singing. Dance. Art school. Guys. Girls. Clubbing. Partying. Fashion. Reading. Friends. Dieting.
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Recent Activity
November 19
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MazTheDimReaper turned 18 12:00am
November 10
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MazTheDimReaper changed their mood to Horrible 5:25pm
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MazTheDimReaper updated their status 5:25pm
HAH! And she calls herself a --ing mother. what a cunt.…
November 9
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MazTheDimReaper updated their status 6:05pm
fml. can I be strong?…
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MazTheDimReaper changed their mood to Bad 6:05pm
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Close Self-Injury
I've been cutting since I was 11 or 12 but before then, when I was younger I used to hit my self to the point where I would bruise. Physical evidence of my SI-ing has always been strangley important to me as I kind of see the marks left behind as feeling of safety, like when I have cuts or bruises I feel like no-one can hurt me any moe than I hurt myself.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I've tried many different councellors but none of them have ever seemed to help me much other than making it easier for me to talk to people about my problems.
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- I find squeezing ice more of a trigger than anything else...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I find talking to people alot easier now than I ever have.
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- The pain is addictive (: I want another one.
Close Depression - Teen
I can't cope anymore :(
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- Pets Working / Worked
- i love my kitten he makes me feel good.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Not Working
Open Bereavement - Teens
Everybody I love Dies.. :'(
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Pets Working / Worked
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Phobia
I have HUGE phobia of Clowns. It's at the point where writing or even seeing the word makes me feel dizzy and physically sick. I also Have Phobias of Open Doors and Spiders.
Open Body Modification
Because I'm Interested in Body Mod. (:
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