Stillamom's Journal

This is the speech I gave at my son's memorial service. Not something everyone would be interested in but seemed to go with the post I put up today. It's not long as such things go. I gave the whole thing dry eyed at the time. Makes me cry buckets now.

Psalm 127 verse 3

3 Sons are a heritage from the LORD,
       children a reward from him.

Job 1:21

"Naked I came from my mother's womb,
       and naked I will depart. [c]
       The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away;
       may the name of the LORD be praised."

The first thing I would like to express is the deep gratitude I have for our heavenly Father in the manner in which he called my son home. After a number of very difficult years he was finally happy both in his personal life and his work. He had no outstanding emotional debts and was as close to the Lord as he had ever been.

Sean didn’t suffer and the period he spent in hospital allowed me to make peace with his passing. If Sean had died by the side of the road I might have been a very angry woman but the time he allowed us together let me feel the love our Father has for all of us when Sean finally left us.

The Lord commands us to teach our children but we all learn from them as well. I helped Sean learn to walk but he helped me learn to walk in the ways of the Lord.

During his life my beloved son Sean gave me the most precious gift that a child can give his mother - a gift that has helped me accept that I will never see him again on this earth..

 Without Sean’s deep devotion to our Lord and his unswerving determination that all his family should be saved I would be in despair at the knowledge that he was finished, gone and that there would never be any hope of seeing him again.

Because of his love for us I can rest assured that we will be reunited in a perfect world with our Lord and Savior.

So I have a message from my heart to all of you who are evangelizing to your loved ones – never give up.

Give them no peace until they accept the Lord even if they reject you time and time again for years. Keep at it until they are sick of the sound of your voice. Keep at when they are bored, rude and make fun of you.

And those of you who are rejecting their words remember that the time will come when you will need, desire and have to have the hope of comfort and everlasting life they are offering you as a gift.

 A gift of pure love and the knowledge that you never have to bear unbearable sorrow alone.

Every one of us alive today, young and old alike, owes the Lord a death and only He has the knowledge of the time and manner of our passing. If you are considering dedicating your life to Jesus the right time is right now.

Because I tell you if even one soul is saved as the result of his death Sean would have considered his life well spent.