ChibiChibi's Journal

Dear Kitty,

          I'm stuck again. I don't know what to write - but I want to write something because my head is so full at the moment. I've done almost nothing but worry - all day, and now I can't stop thinking about everything.

              Ok, the honest truth:

                          I've been feeling pretty miserable for the last few days. I've been over-thinking things, and now I've confused myself. And before anyone asks what's up:

1. Worrying about Isla.

2. Worrying about Fraser.

3. Worrying about Satnav.

4. Worrying about Tom.

5. Worrying that I've upset people because I hate them touching me when I don't expect it.

6. Worrying that people are going to notice I'm upset.

7. Knowing that I've argued with people and upset them.

8. Knowing that I've upset people because of my whole no-touching thing.

9. Hating myself because of reasons 5 to 8.

10. My weight.

                   Don't ask. It's confusing me. Kitty, I - I wish that I could just have someone here right now who doesn't care. I just want to be around someone - and yet I don't. Ok, now I'm even more confused.

I think I want a hug.

Oh, Kitty, ignore me - I'm being selfish. Anyway, I'll shut up now.

I wish you were real, Kitty.

Yours,

          Francesca