Journal

Someone told me today life is shit!
After thinking about it they're right!! A month or so ago I posted a thread about not having any male friends. Last week I met a really funny chap a new employee at where I work. We hit it off like 2 peas in a pod. Todays plan....go to a movie the out to a karioke bar yep he is a singer then what ever happens happens. Our plans changed...
We buried him this morning...massive stroke! I'm a walking death warrant for all perspective male friends!!!! Either that or the grim reaper has terrible aim. Yes life is shit!!! You are right my friend life is shit!
Does happiness exist?? Im not sure anymore...from what has been said to me and what Ive read Im in serious doubt. I have done what I can to bring happiness to some only to have it refused or ignored. Yes Ive made mistakes along the way and burned a few bridges but havent we all. Guess this is the sound of someone giving up. I love you char I really do but the distance is too far for me to help and I so want to be there for you. I promised I would never leave and I will never leave. Its just I fear you will leave me amungst the family pressures your battle that rages within you and the distance between us. Im just finding it hard to be happy.