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katherineNey 
9:10pm, July 6, 2009
i havent written in such a long time.
but ive been super busy with working. and i just got out of school on june 17th
my weight had inceased to 199. and its the worst feeling in the world. you feel like everyone is looking at you and snickering rude things about you. and i learned that my weight was NOT my fault. because i have a problem with my hormones, my pancreas and my liver. and sleep apnia. which all sucks and makes it a lot harder if not impossible for me to lose weight.
so im on birth control for the hormones. and the doctors said it might help me lose some wieght and if i lose enough by the ned of august i might not have to get my tonsils removed.
since ive been working so much i barelty eat. im so busy helping people i forget about hunger too. which i guess is a good thing. im down to 188. as of this morning. so lets hope it keeps going lower.
my aunt and cousin who live in south america are taking a pill called mesura. which they say worked wonders. but my aunt is very active anyways and she is skinny to begin with so i guess she lost even moreweight. and my cousin doesnt work out at al but i guess its helped her alot and she was very heavy. so im trying to find out if i can also get on this pill to help me a little fast.
its not that im in a huge rush but its summer i want to be able to wear a nice bathing suit and look good in it. and have fun. as well as return to school in september and have everyone say i look good and tell me they are proud of me.
its already hard enough waking up EVERY morning to work out for an hour. its a fun work out because i do Billy blanks boot camp and tae bo so its fun but its super hard. im sweating bullets everyday and it actually gives me motivation. at the end of every workout he talks to the camera and it just inspired you alot. so to anyone who is reading this journal, get out there and get billys boot camp. its hard but its so wonderful too. ive only lost a few lbs doing it but it makes me feel good.
i know ive said herbalife and alli were good but now that i think of it.. it was only good for like a week and they both screwed me over and i gained the weight back.
im down to healthy eating and working out and small meals and im proud of myself. and thats whats important to me =]
now im off to a shower and great day at work (lets hope)
send me messages if you guys need anything.
i love ttalking to people. and it helps me too
