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I am a little over 5 weeks now. Still in complete shock and doesn't feel like it's real at all. I go for an ultrasound the 16th to make sure everything is where it is suppose to be and everything is progressing like it should. I am so completely nervous. I just have to make it to week 10 and everything should be fine. Slowly starting to deal with morning sickness, although it is mostly in the afternoon, and lasagna is the only thing I want to eat. My DH says that our child is going to be italian with all the pasta I want to eat ALL the time.

Well ladies, keep your fingers crossed that everything is going well. I love you all and you all are still in my thoughts and prayers.

So AF arrived today...cramps so bad I feel like I should just stay curled up in a ball under my desk at work. I will be started Clomid on Friday. I talked to my nurse yesterday and she went through the whole Clomid challenge process. So I have a question....

For those of you who don't know, I am deathly afraid of needles. I had a bad experience when I was a child and now I just can't seem to get over that fear. When I have to go get blood work done I am literally crying before hand. I can't control it, I tried and I just can't. So when I was talking to my nurse she was saying that on cd 11-15 I have to check for surges of my FSH level and when it is high, come into the office, have an ultrasound done to look for follicles and then they will give me a "little" injection into my tummy to push ovulation over the hump.

My question...how big is this injection actually. Since my phobia is taking over I am dreading days 11-15. Can anyone tell me how bad it is? Is it just a shot or are they actually going to be sticking it into my ovary or something? I know this probably sounds like a stupid question and I am silly for worrying about something like this considering everything is this process consists of, but like I said, my fear of needles is really bad. 

Anyone with any insight?

Thanks ladies! Wishing you all the best!