im0ftheuniverse's Journal

WOW I can't believe I'm here. This afternoon we're getting the keys to our first house. Tomorrow morning we have some family and friends taking time to help us move the big stuff. 

In the middle of all of this, the packing chaos, new physical therapy, my mom dropping off boxes every day, giving us food, cooking and keeping up with our reduced collection of dishes... I have been doing so poorly. My depression is at a low. It's not the most extreme low, but... I am very upset with my brains right now. I have all the reason to be stressed and anxious, but at the same time I would think anyone else would be overjoyed -- to get out of this shitty apartment, to move into this amazing house with the love of my life....... fuck depression!! GRR. I need to make that follow-up apt to see about the new meds and such. It has only been two and a half weeks. I'll wait the standard "6 weeks" to see what's up. I gotta give it that. But I trust my new doc a lot. She is on the ball.

ANYWAYS

wish me luck with this crazy weekend. 

BY THE WAY, 

the cable guy is coming to cancel our internet in the apartment TODAY and we won't have it set up at the house until sometime next week. How will I survive?!! Haha. I should be too busy with everything to notice there's no internet, but I do wish I could hear from you guys somehow. I know it won't be too long. Plus I will have ProFiction at my side.... How I love that man!

Thanks dear friends. I love and miss you, I wish I kept up better with the DS community. I need more motivation I think. And some meds to work. God BLESS you all for being my friend anyway.