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im0ftheuniverse 
2:37pm, October 11, 2009
I'm having a rough week.
I really wanted to sketch out some new goals, but my thoughts are so clouded. Nothing seems related enough to put together as steps toward a goal. I have done some good things, today, like make a doctor appointment (that I've put off for a month, shame on me). I also tried to get a new therapist at this center very close to me. The satellite office phone number goes into the main switch. When I explained to the girl that I had seen one therapist there before but didn't work out as "our personalities clashed" (to be nice about it, but he was an asshole) she said that HE was the one I needed to talk to, who does all of the scheduling! I said, well I don't ever want to talk to him again! And she was like.. .well ... he's the only one you can go through if you want to see someone there... ... ... ... So I just said thanks and that was the end of that.
My doctor appt is monday with my PCP. She prescribed my Zoloft. It's been quite a little while now but I really don't feel like it's going to work. I have gone through phone-tag hell with trying to find someone who accepts my insurance. I can't find a therapist OR a psychiatrist so I'm left with just going back to the family doctor/general practictioner. What else can I do? I need the help but it is not available to me. My mom said today at lunch that she wanted to march on Washington, D.C. and throw a fit about it. Go, mom! You tell 'em!
Anyways.
Blah.
So I DO need to pat myself on the back for facing some of my social anxieties and making those phone calls without panicking or throwing a fit when I couldn't get anywhere.
Meanwhile, I feel great in the whole DS community. I'm loving meeting new friends and staying in the game with discussion posts and everything. It feels good. So another accomplishment, too. Yay!
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It seems like you are doing just fine. All we can do is do our best and that is what it seems like you are doing, doing your best. I think you handled talking to the doctor's office very well. You didn't do what you didn't want to do. What else could you do. I hope you will have a good day. Hugs.
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I think you should call that psych and just say that you need a referral from him to get to see someone new that is closer to your home. You are the patient which is sort of like being a customer at a restaurant. The doc is serving you and is there to help you get your needs met. I think maybe that is what the receptionist may have meant? I know that in order to see a specialist with medical insurance, a doctor in your plan needs to refer you there else the insurance company won't cover anything.
I think you are doing wonderful friend! You are realizing the good in alot and are recognizing the important of feeling pride in yourself for each accomplishment!! P.S. You rock too!! ;)
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