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im0ftheuniverse 
2:37pm, October 11, 2009
Whiteouts of snow are weird. There is so much precipitation you can hardly see a few yards in front of you, yet the sunlight isn't entirely blocked and everything is so white. I've been taking some pictures. The trees are really beautiful! It rained all night and the rain coated everything with ice, every little twig and branch (and of course my little Toyota). Then the snow came and stuck on top of the ice, making everything all puffed up.
Monday I was a wreck. I should have talked to a doctor.
Yesterday I was just so numb.
Today I was supposed to go to the doctor. My car wouldn't start. I left him a message and he didn't return the call (yet?) and probably thinks I'm just skipping out... but I really didn't have any other options. Friends are in different towns and have jobs and stuff. Moms are both in the hospitals today! Yay surgeries. My mom just went in to hers about a half hour ago. My dad will call with an update eventually.
I hate this numb stuff... and I very much hate being a wreck. A big blob of tears and no energy.
I hate that I couldn't get to the doctor today. Bums me out. Also terribly upset about my ol car. She needs to hang in there!
...So do I.
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You can get through it. It sounds like you enjoy photography. That a start, you have interests and know what? It is OK to cry. I do it a lot and it helps release the icky feelings instead of stuffing them in. I am sending you positivity, huge hugs and hope friend!!
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