im0ftheuniverse's Journal

I love all of my DS friends and everyone in my groups... Friends rock!

Last night was very rough for me. I stayed up hours after ProFiction went to sleep, writing in DAPA's discussion, thinking about things, crying... It was awful. When I finally got in bed my headache had returned. Ugh.

Today it rained... pretty much the ENTIRE DAY. I slept very soundly through the late morning. When I awoke a bit after 10:30 it just looked so dark outside! I got up anyway and found myself back here on the computer, amazed with everyone's great efforts and replies to my post.

Thanks to the ideas shared in those responses, I have a new brainstorm. One of the things that spoke to me most was making the effort every single day to stay positive, motivated, and dedicate that time to myself. 

I just finished jotting down my thoughts, positive affirmations, inspirations... a tiny little collection of reminders. I wanted a few more reminders so I took a few minutes and re-read/skimmed through all of my previous journal entries....... and the comments from my dear friends. You are all so encouraging! You are all so amazing for being there! And you are all so kind for putting your words in here, as a part of my journal for me to read and reflect on it... and use your words again and again as reminders to our friendship and to your positivity.

So.... I have a new PROJECT!!

Is anyone familiar with the movie 50 First Dates -- starring Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore. Ms. Barrymore's character, Lucy, has something called Goldfield's syndrome, the result of a head trauma in a car accident that affects her brain's memory. She is unable to process events and information to create any new memories. Then Sandler's character, Henry, has a big fat crush on her... and they begin "dating" -- to Lucy, it's always a first date because she doesn't remember meeting him. Some days Lucy finds out about her condition and the accident... and this inspires Henry to make it easier for her to come to terms with the bad news. He makes her a video that he calls "Good Morning Lucy" and shows a montage of the events over the course of a year, up to and including meeting him and going on dates. Lucy watches the video every day, but secretly she begins a journal as a way of telling herself her own story. This way it's in her perspective and it shows her all that has happened in her own words.

I am going to adapt this "Good Morning Lucy" idea and create my own means of a daily reminder. I obviously need a reminder to show myself the positive and how far I've come, the skills I have gained, and give myself a fresh upbeat perspective to begin every day.

It will be my paper version of DailyStrength -- a journal that I read when I get up to set the mood for the day and prove to myself I've survived and I can keep on keepin' on.

Pictures to follow!