im0ftheuniverse's Journal

Holy motivation, batman!

I had terrible dreams this morning (as usual) and typically that makes me stay in bed the whole day. Well, I don't know exactly what happened differently but I had a huge wave of go-get-'em!

I did some laundry, I cleared the dishes from the sink and put them in the dishwasher... I got out the treadmill (but decided to drink some water and have a bite to eat before I did it since all I had was tea)...(it's waiting for after this post!)... I braved the outdoors and got the mail... I worked on my part of the Christmas grab bag ideas... I just feel so good and productive!

I do know that part of this is the changes I made to let go of my worries and my secrets. Since posting a note on facebook about my goal to lose weight & feel great, I have had an overwhelmingly positive and friendly response from so many long-lost buddies. They have left me notes, sent me text messages, called (and talked for 45 minutes!), IMed, and are making plans to get together. I'm getting involved with people again and I have needed this for quite some time. 

Reflecting on this a little deeper, I think that this is a big huge step towards coming back to work. If I can't even get together with people socially then how would I be able to do it as a productive member of society? This is the beginning of my transition. Thank the Lord!!!

PS I continue to slowly lose weight from that stupid frigging remeron. Wooo!!