Journal

Wow!

Last Saturday I married the love of my life, ProFiction! The day was so perfect and beautiful. It rained a little in the morning but by ceremony time, the sun was shining wonderfully. The night before I slept surprisingly well (at my mom's house too!) and all day Saturday I was cool, calm, collected - nothing could mess up my mood... (Except for maybe our videographer who put everyone on the spot and made me tear up a lot!! haha)...

After the ceremony everyone got together for our pictures, formal in the church (and not one of us was a "blinker" so it went quickly) then to an outside setting for casual pics with our friends in our bridal party by a big fountain. 

At the reception EVERYONE had a GREAT time. I truly had a blast!!! A lot of people danced and drank and the food was outstanding... the cookies went quickly (and I heard some of the wait staff was rude to a few guests before we arrived, uncool - but really the only problem of the whole day). Our photographer was sooo awesome, she had a good time too and already uploaded a couple of her shots to give us some "teasers" while she works on the rest of them, probably ready when we get back from our honeymoon! We're going to New Orleans for a week starting next Saturday.

After the reception, our very very cool photographer wanted to get a couple more shots in the city as we were headed there anyway for a night at the very luxurious Renaissance Hotel! In the morning we were able to use meal passes to enjoy the breakfast buffet - a lot to choose from and we enjoyed the fresh meats and cheeses and fresh fruits the most. After this straight to a local bakery/restaurant for a bigger brunch with ProFiction's out-of-town family too.

Sunday afternoon we packed our car with wedding gifts and cards then sat together, just the two of us, HUSBAND AND WIFE, and opened everything together. Shed a few more tears for the very touching things our friends and family said to us in their words/cards/gifts. So lovely.

MONDAY we went to MY family's house for more family time (my great aunt from Texas made the trip up!) and enjoyed ribs my dad cooked out in the smoker. In the evening more time hanging out with my brother and his girlfriend before they went home to Boston.

:D

 

So much good stuff lately, not even stressed out - just being laid-back and truly ENJOYING the celebrations!!

Therapy sessions have been on hold with all the prep for the wedding day and now for winding down and planning and packing for the honeymoon too. However, I have been taking MY NEW MEDS for a little over a week now. The Prozac has (maybe?) helped me sleep better for sure and I'm only on 20mg so far. After 3 weeks I move to 40mg. The pdoc I saw for this new script is A MAZING. She totally rocks. She really understands me and has seen a lot of people and knows just what to do. She gave me hope. :D

Today I want to write down my accomplishments.

I got up without my alarm before 10am.

I did my old "swish n swipe" in the bathroom and it is sparkling! (did an overhaul last night).

I dressed to the lace up shoes.

I took out the garbage.

I put on a CD in the kitchen!!

I washed a big sink full of dishes and dried and put them away too!

I haven't been wasting my time on facebook or whatever, I haven't watched TV all day. 

I talked to my husband <3

I looked at some new wedding pictures my cousin sent to my mom. They're so fun!

I have all of this life in me today. I need to really take advantage of it while it's here, hopefully keep the momentum and gain some more!

I hate the crying headache. Nothing gets rid of it. Any suggestions??????????????????

This sucks.

I don't feel like going back to bed. I just feel like tomorrow is going to be even worse than today. I don't know how to keep on going like this.

Thursday is the new doc appointment. I have high hopes but I guess I'm not really expecting any miracles anytime soon. I do know that I will hold them to the standard 6 week policy on new meds: If it isn't working it probably won't. End of story, end of trial, let's find something else to make me nauseous and gain 20 pounds and have super dry mouth and not feel like enjoying any kind of sex life with my husband* in 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And yet for all of those punctuation marks, I still do not feel too excited. A new chat friend of mine said: don't worry if you don't feel excited for the wedding day, it's just one day and the marriage is a lifetime to be excited........ true that.

MY HEAD HURTS. UGHHHHH. I hate this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't mean THOSE exclamation points that much either. I just want this to stop.