I have not been on my journal for so long. Well I have had problems with shocks around my teeth. So taking more tablets. Makes my mouth numb but that is okay.Still not working as finding it hard, plus I always feel so tired. Smoking alot and my husband hates cigs. But I find it calms me. Husband says its a excuse. You know I really am in that time of mood that I really don't care what he things. Spoke to my daughter in south africa the other day and my gran children. They are so cute. Melanie also sends me alot of pictures of them on facebook, and they are so big now. My exhusband who lives with them says they the best. Lucky him.
My boys here are still smoking grass and the one is giving me a hard time. He is so full of shit. The one left his girl friend out of the blue, lovely girl. So graham and I are helping her move her stuff into a new flat. Suddenly he does not talk to me and he is hurting, but he is the one who left in the first place. But everyone else is at fault. God some children just never grow up.
My other child thank goodness has found a job so hope he kepts it. His girlfriend was not happy that he had no job and she had to pay the bills.
So I have had these two to put up with. My daughter are great no problem.
Then with me not beable to work and my husband still not working I have been really down and stressed. Wish I could win a lottery , first thing I would do is pay the flat up and get rid of all our debits, then I would go see my gran children.
But I really don't know what to do. I just am taking a day at a time. I think that is why I love to sleep, when I sleep I feel I have no problems. Anyhow I am sure oneday my life will come right. But thinking about it I have never had a great life, my life has always been the same, except now I have TN to try get used to. I really should not complain as some people are worse of then me. Its just that I am such a big baby, hate any form of pain.
Well that it for now, getting all my angry out.
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I have not been on my journal for so long. Well I have had problems with shocks around my teeth. So taking more tablets. Makes my mouth numb but that is okay.Still not working as finding it hard, plus I always feel so tired. Smoking alot and my husband hates cigs. But I find it calms me. Husband says its a excuse. You know I really am in that time of mood that I really don't care what he things. Spoke to my daughter in south africa the other day and my gran children. They are so cute. Melanie also sends me alot of pictures of them on facebook, and they are so big now. My exhusband who lives with them says they the best. Lucky him.
My boys here are still smoking grass and the one is giving me a hard time. He is so full of shit. The one left his girl friend out of the blue, lovely girl. So graham and I are helping her move her stuff into a new flat. Suddenly he does not talk to me and he is hurting, but he is the one who left in the first place. But everyone else is at fault. God some children just never grow up.
My other child thank goodness has found a job so hope he kepts it. His girlfriend was not happy that he had no job and she had to pay the bills.
So I have had these two to put up with. My daughter are great no problem.
Then with me not beable to work and my husband still not working I have been really down and stressed. Wish I could win a lottery , first thing I would do is pay the flat up and get rid of all our debits, then I would go see my gran children.
But I really don't know what to do. I just am taking a day at a time. I think that is why I love to sleep, when I sleep I feel I have no problems. Anyhow I am sure oneday my life will come right. But thinking about it I have never had a great life, my life has always been the same, except now I have TN to try get used to. I really should not complain as some people are worse of then me. Its just that I am such a big baby, hate any form of pain.
Well that it for now, getting all my angry out.
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