mommyau

About Me

Thanking this site very much!!! I only came to understand myself better after coming here..i was so confused about myself because i became a very different person after i left the first man who abused me.. I have to be here in DS to unload...i can write here my feelings without being judged and hear words like "why can't i just go on with my life and live my life now?"or words like, "never mind those people in your past because it was history already"...this is my "safety zone".. i can express here what is really happening to me which helps me emotionally sane ... i grew up in a small community, we lived all those time being"hostaged" by some people ....was "influenced" by my late mother who always tells us to be silent even some things are no longer fair in our lives, my late father was a very strong and brave man but was so gentle as a father......I was NOT abused by my parents, i can not remember any incident that i was physically hurt by my parents especially my father who passed away when i was 16....so when i was abused by a man when i was 19 years old ..it damaged and devastated me as a person and changed me a lot especially emotionally.. it really caused me a lot because i was not prepared for that kind of life ....decades already but still no acknowledgement from that man for the "sins" he did to me which i realized after many years ...

Thanking this site very much!!! I only came to understand myself better after coming here..i was so confused about myself because i became a very different person after i left the first man who abused me.. I have to be here in DS to unload...i can write here my feelings without being judged and hear words like "why can't i just go on with my life and live my life now?"or words like, "never mind those people in your past because it was history already"...this is my "safety zone".. i can express here