pennylane5

About Me

I started out okay, very well adapted and an over achiever. I was gifted and talented, great at sports, high IQ, and excelled at just about everything I did. Somewhere in there, I began to feel strange. I guess I lacked the things to keep me occupied. WEll, once that happened, all else failed. I used to be so confident and strong. I let the questions in, and they never left. Now, after seeing who I was again, I know I am really, truely, amazing if I put my efforts towards what I love. I love to sing, I love to read, I love to write, I love interacting with others, I love feeling the sun on my skin on a warm day, I love to ride a bike, ski, rollerblade, hike, hear the crickets sing, dance to the song of just about any tune, and laugh out loud until my stomach hurts so much. I miss laughing with my father. I miss seeing his teeth, the space between them. I miss smelling his coffee breath as he spoke. However, I will keep remembering him. I will tell my daughter about him and the airplanes he dreamed to fly. I miss being happy about who I am. So, my goal is to find that happiness and to stop failing. I am not a person to fail. I am a person that will succeed, and do well. Maybe the grief of my father held me back, maybe feeling a bit different from others was overwhelming, I am not sure.....but, I am on a path to find me again. I can't live as a failure. I am not going to let this life pass me without giving my 110%

I started out okay, very well adapted and an over achiever. I was gifted and talented, great at sports, high IQ, and excelled at just about everything I did. Somewhere in there, I began to feel strange. I guess I lacked the things to keep me occupied. WEll, once that happened, all else failed. I used to be so confident and strong. I let the questions in, and they never left. Now, after seeing who I was again, I know I am really, truely, amazing if I put my efforts towards what I love. I love to sing,