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Fantonme 
1:13pm, June 22, 2009
Joey - Mommy misses you so much. It is so hard for me to accept the fact that you have been officially gone from us as long as you were here. Mommy is doing her best to try and hold it together today.
We are celebrating your big sisters 5th birthday. She misses you so much. The one present that she wanted the most, was a locket to carry your picture around in. She wants to proudly show everyone her angel baby brother!! She also wants to bring you up some balloons before her party. She wants to make sure that your there with your balloons for the celebration!!! God bless her little heart.
Big boy I can't imagine what you would be like right now and that breaks my heart. The other day at the doctors office I saw a little boy that was about as old as you would be right now and I lost it. I know that you are in a better place and that you are watching over all of us. But there is a selfish part of mommy that just wants you back in my arms. Well mommy is having a hard time even typing this morning. Help me be strong for your sister today - she deserves the best birthday party ever. I love you Joey with all my heart!!!
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I'm sorry hon. I remember when Daegan had been gone longer than he was here. It was really tough for me. I know you toughed it out and Gracie had a good party and I know Joey is proud of his mommy. Be easy on yourself sweetie. Tight hugs
LaylaF
I hear ya on that one hunny...that day hit for me right after the new year...you made it through! I know right now it doesn't feel like that great of a thing, but it is a big deal....you will find that once each date passes you find yourself to be a little bit stronger each time..Joey is for sure proud, sending you big hugs!
NickNicksmommykitkat
I'M SO SORRY SWEETIE!! THIS IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL LETTER!! YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS & PRAYERS, YOUR A VERY BEAUTIFUL MOMMY!! (((BIG HUGS))) LOVE, THERESA
Theresa42266
You are doing a good job. Hang in there. We are here for you. I hope the birthday was a blast.
mommyoflily
I am tearing up reading your words about Gracie and how she wants a locket to hold her brothers picture. Oh so sweet,I know as a mom it touches and yet breaks your heart. It is hard to be happy for your other kids and celebrate their birthday while mourning the loss of your baby boy. I remember that,Anna's birthday was just 13 days after losing Skye and I barely held it together she was turning 7 and luckily for me my hubby and mom and SIL helped me out, I had forgotten everything. I had a cake but completely forgot plates,cups,napkins,balloons and all the essentials I was still walking around in shock and still so sad. I am praying for you too. I know your Joey is going to be with you through all these difficult and bitter sweet times. Love and hugs,Kate
katemc
that was a tough milestone for me too. please know you are not alone.
Leosmommy
it is the worst feeling in the world when you realize your child has been gone longer then the time he spent on earth. my thoughts are with you.
azuregris
Oh hunny, that made me cry, I had to wait a few b4 I could type. What a sweet sister she is, I love it! It is so sad in a way that she has to...I dont know what to say.
We are all going to make it thru this, We are going to live with it and we are going to be with our babies again very soon.
I used to be scared to die, but even since Shayla has passed Im so ready!
MrsTiffany