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Fantonme 
4:44pm Monday
Went out to a retirement party last night and ended up going out to a bar for a couple drinks. My fathers cousin was in there and I hadn't seen her in a long time. I went down to talk to her and found out that 24 years ago, she had also lost a baby boy to Sids. He was a 3 1/2 month old healthy happy little boy that fell asleep and never woke up. She caught me off guard and I found myself out in tears surrounded by people. She told me 24 years later, she still struggles with his death everyday. She said it never goes away. Which in a way I hope it never does. If the pain goes away, then so do all the good memories.
Her niece was also in there and spoke to me after she had left. She explained the story to me in a little more detail and told me that their entire family think that this was where her life changed and she when she started spiralling downward. She has struggled with alcoholism, parenting to her other children and relationships with men for her entire life. It is kind of sad but makes a lot of sense. I know that for many people the pain is too much and they find ways or methods to medicate themselves. I just hope that I can be strong enough to take this and make a difference for the better.
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I hope so too. 24 years ago they didn't talk about those things like they do now either, maybe that will be the main difference.
mommyoflily
Me too, I want to make Mason proud that I am his mommy! I wonder how they got through it back then, without computers and the internet?? With them we have so much information at our fingertips (good and bad) and I am so grateful to have a place like DS, it helps me get through my days!
MRNmom
I hope so too. I don't know where I would be without the internet, in my area we don't have support for SIDS so I'm sure 24 years ago it was tough for her to talk to anyone. DS is the best, it has helped me thru so much!
arihanna
oh that's awful, i agree with everyone, I need to talk about nathan. If i didn't i'd go insane
Moosesmom
Same here...I agree...if it wasn't for DS and the net I'd be in far worse shape than I am here!!!
NickNicksmommykitkat
Wow......just imagine how we all would be if we didnt have places like DS????
Akisha