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I am very happy to report that I have started being more proactive with all the things I've needed to get done. In my last entry, I wrote about applying for several jobs. I heard back from one yesterday that they are no longer seeking applicants. I hate getting those kind of messages, although I know a lot of people get angry when they don't hear back from employers one way or the other. But I can't stand rejection for any reason.
But I did two good things yesterday--I worked out, and I started writing one of my books. I can't tell you how good it feels to be working out again. I will not be weighing myself anytime soon, either. One reason is because I know I am probably at my highest weight ever, but I don't want to know exactly what that number is. So, I plan to weigh myself when I feel my clothes fitting differently...and then I will keep track of my weight loss. Another reason is because weighing oneself can become an obsession. You always want to see how much weight you've lost, and you are hoping you've lost a lot of pounds in a short amount of time.
Right now, I am just enjoying getting workouts in, feeling more energetic afterwards, breathing easier, and looking forward to my clothes fitting differently and gaining muscle. And I'm liking the stamina increase. Boxing felt easier, and I worked out for about 40 minutes. In addition to boxing, I rode the exercise bike for 20 minutes, did strength training and did situps.
As far as my book, I've got essentially one whole chapter done. I can't give details about the book here, but I've had a hard time getting started on it. One reason is because the topic makes me angry usually, and I was worried that anger would come through in the writing, spoiling the book. But so far, so good, it seems. It also just seemed like such a task. But once I started writing, I couldn't stop and the words flowed pretty easily. It's 4:30am, I've been writing for hours and I'm not the slightest bit tired.
So, I feel really good.
P.S. In case you're wondering why I'm writing on something that pisses me off...the topic is too important not to be written. If I don't write this book, no one else will.
