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blondbeauty 
10:00pm, August 25, 2009
hi everyone know i have not been on for a while but have had alot going on. ended up back in the hospital march 7 but got out yesterday march 20 it was so ruff im sick of hospitals. my crohns disease still messed with my surgery so the surgeons had to go back end and redo the surgery or something like that to stop the narrowing and then treat all after that and 100 tests before and after i came home. it was shaky that i came home yesterday because i had lost my appetite and the desire to eat and still do today so everytime i get up i feel light headed and dizzy like im going to pass out.i think the anethisia makes me lose my appetite i have had crohns for a year and couple months know i hate is so bad im so happy for people who have it and live normal lives but i am completely decided i can't live with crohns and have a normal life and nothing can change that its just so hard to accept that. their are so many things i miss out on because of being in the hospital or not feeling well or stuff i can't do because i have crohns like carry a bookbag and so many more things.
"I'll keep moving on and only god knows why"
then the day after coming home from the hospital isn't any better still can't eat people fussing at you to eat then fussing at you for random little things that get me stressed out. im so stressed and overwhelmed with everything and have no one to talk face to face the only person i did have is in a better place. so i just .............................................
don't know
love ya'll so much
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Kayla, I had a bad feeling you were back in the hospital. I wish I understood & wished their was something I could do to help you. I would guess & say I am in remission. I don't get it, I'm older than you & have worked harder & longer, I should be in worse shape than you. I continually pray for you. If you ever want to talk don't hesitate, call me & I can call you right back. My heart goes out to you, I will continually pray for you.
lots of love Diana
Diana1
hi hun.i feel for you. i want to just drop you a message. i got diagnosed with crohnes at age 11. it took me all the way till age 19 to finally decide to smarten up(i fought the idea that i had a cronic illness with everything i had) and try to live life. i looked at my life and where i was and saw that i was a "better" person because of my crohnes. yes, i had to drop out of high school, the stress triggered flares, yes i lost all of my "supposedly bestfriends", yes i did'nt get out much, couldnt do much, but i was alive!and i now knew who actually cared, i understood pain and depression and lonliness and i appreciated my family,i could be happy!(while on the throne:) its so hard. still is. i have my days also where i curl up in bed and cry for a couple hours and dont want to do anything,or go anywhere, but then i get up early the next morning and get lots done and those are the days i feel best!oh sweetie i hope i'm helping you to feel even a wee bit better. you hang in there!you're a trooper, we all are. thinking of you lots, my heart hurts for your pain. i'm here to chat about the difficulties if you wish!!!hugs!
shmhoopy
So sorry to hear that you are going through such a bad time. I was diagnosed at 14 - have had it for over 40 years and it DOES get better - you will have long periods of remission and the right medication WILL control the inflammation and flare-ups - you WILL enjoy life and life WILL fulfill you - it is just that while you are suffering like you are - you really can't see an end to it - a breathing space, a better time - but I promise you - it is just ahead, just along the road - take a deep breath and be very, very kind to yourself. Love and Light, Holly7
Holly7