So Hard - I Lost Her To Cancer Today
February 11, 2009 4:11am
It's a sad day and it'll be a sad time for me for awhile. Yesterday morning, February 11, 2009 - A very close family friend who has been …
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HeartOfAFighter
4:13am, February 11, 2009
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About Me
HeartOfAFighter
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About Me
First off my name is Nathalie and I have a personality disorder known as Borderline. I also suffer from self harm tendencies, for me that's pulling my own hair out and cutting. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety. I also isolate so much that aside from my family I really don't have any real friends that I can trust. I have been through three treatment centers that very much stabilized me and had me on the right path. But some how I fell off of it and need help/support to get back to that.
First off my name is Nathalie and I have a personality disorder known as Borderline. I also suffer from self harm tendencies, for me that's pulling my own hair out and cutting. I suffer from severe depression and anxiety. I also isolate so much that aside from my family I really don't have any real friends that I can trust. I have been through three treatment centers that very much stabilized me and had me on the right path. But some how I fell off of it and need help/support to get back to that.
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Interests
I have so many interests but to name a few - I love walking on the beach early in the morning before the tourists arrive. Meeting a friend and catching up over a cup of coffee is great too. When I am feeling that I need just me time, you most likely will find me painting pictures on a canvas, doing small crafts that I found at Michaels, and baking. I also love to write in my journal, write short stories, play tennis, watch movies, watch television, spend time with my friends when I have the time to do so, talk on the phone, listen to music, dance in my condominium when no one is watching, gardening and lighting candles and watching them flicker in the evening.
I have so many interests but to name a few - I love walking on the beach early in the morning before
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Support Groups
Close Anger Management
For two and half years I was in a very abusive relationship with a Vietnamese man and his family. I was under his/their control for a while. It wasn’t until August, I realized that I had an anger issue and that scared me so much that I ended things with him and cut off all connections I had except for my family. Starting over fresh and new with therapy is working for me.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionMy whole life I have battled depression. My father committed suicide when I was four years old and I never really have recovered from that. While growing up, my family never wanted to see that I was depressed and I didn’t get help until last year. In August 2007, I went into inpatient treatment to finally get the help that I so desperately needed. After six month of inpatient, I am out on my own living my life as I should with the help of a therapist/psychiatrist.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Effexor Not Working
- Lexapro Not Working
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Prozac Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Detox Working / Worked
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)When I was an inpatient at Sierra Tucson, an inpatient facility for my depression - I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder as well. For the first six months since then, I have fought the diagnosis but now I am slowly coming to terms with it, what it means and how I can live with this disorder.
Treatments
- Emotions Anonymous (EA) Too Soon to Tell
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
I have been a cutter since I was thirteen but kept it well hidden until August of 2007 when it got totally out of control. I never did have scars from the cutting before 2007, but now I do and every day is a battle not to reopen those scars or not to cut.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- It worked while I was in it during Inpatient/Outpatient programs but now just seeing my psychiatrist and psychologist isn't cutting it. It also would help if I would open up to both of them and tell them everything thats going on in my life, not keeping it all to myself.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- When I was in Outpatient Treatment Program after coming out of six months of intensive inpatient it worked, but as soon as I came back home and went to old unhealthy habits like old friends and my ex boyfriend I started back up with cutting.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- It also would help if I would open up to both of them and tell them everything thats going on in my life, not keeping it all to myself.
- Red Marker Working / Worked
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- Squeezing Ice Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
Type: TrichotillomaniaI have been pulling my hair since I was twelve years old, which now makes it that I have been pulling my hair, eyelashes, and eyebrows for fifteen years. I have tried everything to stop it, but nothing seems to work.
Open The Financial Crisis
I just bought my own condo and thankfully it's almost paid off now. I work as a Medical Assistant and make ends meet quite well, but with how things are going in the economy I am always afraid of losing my job and if that happens I don't know what I will do considering I hear how hard it is to find a job now.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Treatments
- 3 Hour Diet Working / Worked
- 6 Week Body Makeover Working / Worked
- Alli Working / Worked
- Counting Calories Working / Worked
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Hoodia Working / Worked
- Jenny Craig Working / Worked
- NutriSystem Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Slim-Fast Working / Worked
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Forgiveness Not Working
- My family and my ex boyfriend combined have caused me so much pain that it seems like I cant deal with. I got rid of the ex boyfriend months ago and am just sifting through memories and fighting the temptation to reach out to him again just so I wont be alone. But as for my family, I cant and dont want to get rid of them - I just want to stop being angry about the past.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- When I was in Group Therapy I was doing much better than I am right now and hope in the next few days to get back into and talk with people that are like me but directed by my therapist.
- Leave Working / Worked
- In 2007 when everything was too much with my ex boyfriend and my family, I went to three treatment centers all in different states and it helped greatly to get away. My problems didnt start coming back once I came home, got triggered by ex, started dating him and lieing about everything under the sun.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Talking Working / Worked
