RosanneA's Journal

Feeling pretty good today besides my usual head and face pain and the fatigue but overall I have a handle on it today.
My beautiful grandaughter is coming over in a couple of hours and will be sleeping over tonight so her mom can attend a group. I sure hope and pray she  gets something out of attending these meetings for women who have been abused because she continues to keep the the child father in her life and she lives in a self imposed prison being controled by him all for the sake of extra money.
Grrrr... I`am learning to let go...
Speaking of letting go. I may have to stop attending my Tuesday thru Thursday Alanon meetings that I find help to keeping me sane.
Looks like my daughter may be getting a job working for uncle Sam as a mail carrier. Don`t get me wrong I`am thrilled for her, getting a stable job with benifits. Now its up to her to get it and keep it. I hope she can pass the physical though. She has a bad back that she is getting injections for that they do not know anything about. Time will tell, she will have the physical sometime next week.
She informed me that I would need to be babysitting Tuesdays,Wednesdays and Thursdays.Her mother will d rop her off in the mornings, later I would have to drive the little one 40 minutes away to nursey school and a few hours later pick her up and drive her back to my home till her mom got out of work. This is going to be VERY hard for me to do but she doesn`t have anyone else to help her. I`am not going to say anything because I haven`t even tried to do it yet.
Thing is, I`am finding myself feeling a little resentful that I can`t get to my meetings anymore.I don`t know if I`am being selfish and I`am not sure how to deal with thse feelings.
I know I can try to go to Monday and Friday meetings I just got use to having my favorite Wed. meeting and other day meetings..
Perhaps I just needed to vent. I hope these feelings go away.