RosanneA's Journal

Sam is sleeping soundly. Her mother informed me of the new job today. Looks like I won`t be seing much of Samantha once school starts soon. She will be going to school in her neck of the woods. God I will miss her.

In the meantime  Kristin has an overnight position and I have Sam for the next week every day and night overnight. Odd how she takes me for granted and never asks just expects me to be there.

I wonder how long she will be able to keep it all together given her lifestlye.

Kristin has had Samantha back for about a month and a half now. I have been walking on eggshells since she has gotten her back because of her refusal to let me see Samantha if she is upset with me.

When she first got her back I think she started using crack again pretty heavily and then she got wind that I knew and settled down some. Now I`am not so sure if she is still using but I suspect she is . Her addittude towards me is awful and Iam so sick of her hanging up on me if I say something she doesnt like.

Luckly I have had the pleasue of still seeing Samantha quite a bit since she has gotten custody back and tonight after our fight she told me things are going to change and she said Samantha is not coming over here much anymore. She was even talking crazy saying, I told Sam her mother used drugs. I said NO I didnt. She said even the dept of social services knows you did and that you are brain washing my child. She sounds like a Nut! I thinks after listening to her that she is USING DRUGS!!!!!!!!! I dont want my grandaughter with this person. I feel like I hate her right now.

I don``t know what I`ll do if I don`t see her. She and I are so very close. Even my daughter said we are too close. I think its bothering her.

What a way to start journaling again.

Hi Everyone,

Nothing much to say over here. I`am in a lot of pain today.
I just wanted to let everyone know I posted a pic of Samantha
in my photo section. Now you can see why I talk about that little girl so much.
Have a good night all.