Sadness
November 4, 2009 12:23pm
It really isnt worth the pain it brings
Progress
5 %
Goal End Date is Jul 1, 09 130 days ago.
BazLazarus 
10:44am Wednesday
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About Me
BazLazarus
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About Me
Im a broken man and I need some glue. I have a wife of 10 years and an 11yr old son. I suffer with BPD but Im at the more extreme end of the scale, according to my psycho-the-rapist. Im a bit nuts and weird and as a result not many people can connect with me. I try not to pass judgement and keep myself to myself. *************************************************************************************************** Ive deleted most of my friends becuase I dont see the point. Just like in real life, not many want to know anyway
Im a broken man and I need some glue. I have a wife of 10 years and an 11yr old son. I suffer with BPD but Im at the more extreme end of the scale, according to my psycho-the-rapist. Im a bit nuts and weird and as a result not many people can connect with me. I try not to pass judgement and keep myself to myself. *************************************************************************************************** Ive deleted most of my friends becuase I dont see the point. Just like in real life, not
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Im a musician, I play bass, guitar, ukulele, mandolin. I love my computer games and I keep tropical fish
Im a musician, I play bass, guitar, ukulele, mandolin. I love my computer games and I keep tropical fish
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Repeating
October 29, 2009 5:28pm
I repeat things. I like the repitition of nearly everything. Its why I keep smoking weed, its why I keep slipping backwards, or what feels like …
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October 24, 2009 1:35pm
But I am angry, miserable and I am pursuing a real need to be alone.
Sad and depressing.
I have no idea what sparked this great low but its hurting me …
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Maybe it's because he's found a freedom in his own restrictions - I always say that people that do things in extremes (not that I know a lot about him), are trying to combat the other extremes inside of them - a bull in a china shop of emotions lol.....
It's almost like a state of ecstasy, to 'push' outside of your emotional turmoil or confusion, or hysteria etc..... I found out that ecstasy means to be outside ones body - so maybe that is the state that a lot of artists want to get to, even if it's just a part of their consciousness.....
I don't think I am like him, being a girl also lol, but I will look for it..... Will it be online??? I could read the reviews....
Hope you're doing ok. Be nice to talk again. take care
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Joy? yay -- loved that, it's funny cos I was listening to Peaceful, The World Lays Me Down today! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hzt... yaaay....
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how are you baz? what are you listening to?
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Not sure how to take that ! lol I did look up at it briefly..... He sounds a lot more creative and wacky than me but I can sort of see....... Thanks anyway - how are you?
Get Well Soon!
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionSuffered with depression since my early teens, only just recieving diagnosis/treatment. Been on a variety of meds, currently Mirtazapine
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Didnt work for me
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Was helping until the nhs cancelled it
- Elavil Not Working
- Didnt help
- Prozac Not Working
- Made me feel insecure
Close DailyStrength Members Community
Here to help if I can
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)Been diagnosed BPD. Never thought to look here before.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- Itsgetting there
