a nightmare
November 8, 2008 9:33pm
I had to go to a new Dr. for my meds for my depression and he has made some drastic changes on my …
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JaydenSuzanne 
9:46pm, November 24, 2008
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About Me
JaydenSuzanne
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About Me
Christian, Bipolar , survivor, I want to grow as a person, grow in the Lord, and be a witness of God's amazing Grace and love.I love all kinds of music laughing feeling free,
Christian, Bipolar , survivor, I want to grow as a person, grow in the Lord, and be a witness of God's amazing Grace and love.I love all kinds of music laughing feeling free,
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Interests
Music, listening to , making it, writing it , playing the guitar, singing, friends, bowling, church, Reading, reading the bible, doing yard work, writing poems and stories, movies, witnessing to people,
Music, listening to , making it, writing it , playing the guitar, singing, friends, bowling, church,
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Journal
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A Sad Goodbye
October 10, 2008 10:34pm
I met you on this website,
you were a friend to me,when no one had the time.
we were opposites and wondered why I wanted to be your …
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Hugbook
Moment of Peace
"what does it mean when you dream of dead people you know?" -usually i t means that something triggered a memory- sometimes it means you miss them- sometimes it's more sinister- triggering bad memories- usually they're subconscious or what you would call muscle memory- your brain associating something with a specific person but not necessarily bringing up a whole memory. i still dream of my grandpa occasionally even though he's been dead for 12 years
Flower
hi how are u doing ? i have not been on this site in awhile hope all is well
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Celebration
HAVE A HAPPY 4TH OF JULY
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Hug
hi how are u doing ? i have not been on this site for a min hope all is ok with u . :- )
Shout Out
i miss you sometimes.
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Ive been diagnosed for over 10 yrs. It is a difficult way to live at times,but keep on trying.Daily
Treatments
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Ive always been pretty big 317 about3 yrs ago.262,now and it seems like its slow getting it off.
Treatments
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- not starving myself but watching what I eat and when I eat it.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- work out 3 times a week on a bow flex
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
hitting shoving punching cheating,for along time thats thetypes of ppl I apparently attracted..
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- Counseling Status: Working
- Divorce Working / Worked
- got rid of his cheating self after 13 yrs
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- forgiveness is a step by step process if you do it right
- Leave Working / Worked
- Helped in the first days missed him
- Music Working / Worked
- playing guitar, singing writing,EXPRESSION
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- best yet my counsellor is awesome
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I had quit for almost 3 weeks got VERY UPSET and smoked one and now I am nauseaous
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- good until today I go to church
Open Breakups & Divorce
Ihave problems with people who cant be faithful to me. I try my best to make them happy and suppoert them and they still feel the need to cheat, in real life or online, so Its scary for me to try.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I try , AND i know i should keep forgiving ,but its hard to see him doing the same things he did before.kinda hard to forget and trust.
- Leave Not Working
- moved out went back. didnt work
- Music Working / Worked
- soothes me, and lifts me up, either playing it listening to it whatever way to enjoy music.
- Reading Working / Worked
- bible, self help
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- church,friends
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- it helps sometimes
Open Self-Injury
I have been in control of it for a few months but I cut myself to stop the emotional pain.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- some people are really judgemental and look at you like youve gone mad
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have suffered from depression since I was ayouong young child molested at 5 yrs old repeatedly,left me very depressed and confused attempted suicide at 13 twice cuttin and pills,it is a daily fight sometimes,But I HAVE to fight.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- doing better may need to up my dose from 120 to 150 or 180
- Electroconvulsive therapy Considering
- If id work Id do it. I know the risks and the results after this treatment
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- somewhat helping
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Its good when its good but theres times I dont feel better when I leave dont get me wrong my counsellor is great
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- its good when Im very upset or need help to wind down at night
- Writing Working / Worked
- lets me let it all out so it doesnt stay in there and fester
Open Stress Management
It would be impossible for me to live stress free even 1 day ,something or someone is ALWAYS PULLING MY TRIGGERS.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- iT SOOTHES ME AND CALMS ME UNTIL THE NEXT CRISIS HAPPENS
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- GOOD FOR AWHILE ABOUT THE ONLY TIME BESIDES THE BATHROOM NO ONE AGGRIVATES ME LOL
Open Obesity
I have always been alittle overweight, Id like to lose 100 lbs , for self esteem and health reasons
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful
- work out circuit train 3x a week on a bowflex
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentin a matter of 6 months everyone who meant something in my life died of cancer or illness difficulty I HAVE NO ONE as far as family left on this earth
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- break down and cry at times it helps for awhile
- Helping Others Working / Worked
- tell others i KNOW HOW THEY FEEL
- Music Working / Worked
- writing singing
- Pets Not Working
- PET DIED
- Poetry Working / Worked
- raw harsh heart felt
- Prayer Working / Worked
- go to church,pray ,music
- Reading Working / Worked
- bible self help
- Remembering Working / Worked
- TRYING TO REMEMBER GOOD MOMENTS
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Due to recurring sexual abuse and assault I suffer from post tramatic stress , been thru alot,Im trying to ge some handle on it , some how some way.
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- tweaking my thought processes
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Effexor Not Working
- not working races heartbeat
- Music Working / Worked
- helps at times
- Reading Working / Worked
- at themoment it doesnt keep my concentration
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Groups
Christian Fellowship
UNCENSORED BipolarBears 18 and over ONLY!!
Triggers Panic Attacks And Flashbacks
Prayer Warriors
T.H.U.G.S.4.J.C.
WHAT I DID RIGHT TODAY
Ranaesheart at DailyStrength Weight Loss
Ghosts Fact or Fiction
A Laughter Club
poetry palace
writer stories of Gods Grace
Breaking Free
Prayer Group
Jesus Freaks
Lets Write It Out !
Mainstream Bible Study and Fellowship
Unsolved Murders. A Survivor Group.
A Leaders Forum
favorite bible verses
Victory Christian Fellowship at DS
Pipers USO
Randomers
Close Your Eyes and Visualize ...
Nightmare crew
finding or refinding love
TriggersVentingRanting
Fear of Abandonment
