Journal

I am 27 years old . i have two boys nine and four. I  am waiting for a spinal fusion surgery that seems like is never going to happen. I fell one day while shopping at a walmart store and messed up 3 discs in my back.  My back is so bad i can't hardly move , stand, or walk. this has been going on for a year. I spend most of my time in my bed. My brother has to come over every day to help me take care of my boys and clean up. This makes me feel so bad. I am feeling so much pain now in my heart too.  I feel helpless.  My youth has been taking from me.