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DutchityDutch 
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About Me
DutchityDutch
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About Me
"When I get back from hell again, I'm gonna be so elegant.The relevance of my benevolence is evident."
"When I get back from hell again, I'm gonna be so elegant.The relevance of my benevolence is evident."
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Interests
I like looking at art, I like making art - photos, pottery, fabrics, paints, paper ~~ My head is like a music library. Music is important to me ~~~I enjoy sneaking into hotel pools often because its fun - I love swimming and I don't have my own pool therefore I feel somehow justified..~~~ I Love popcorn and sometimes feel that it can be a substitute for a proper meal ~~~ My sense of whats appropriate may be warped because I don't offend easily - that's not an invitation to try to offend me. Political correctness has its place and all but also drives me a bit mad ~~~More things I am NOT interested in:.~~~I don't like cheese - I'm in a minority there yes, I know - but honestly its gross to me in any form ~~~ Also not fond of cake. No that's not relevant really but I'm just trying to think of things I don't like~~~ Self indulgent pricks- No one specific, just generally speaking...if you're a self indulgent prick we won't get on (unless you're funny about it) ~~~ I have a degree of hatred for money, government. politics and the state of the world, as a whole ~~~ I love cigarettes a lot more than they love me - Its an unbalanced borderline abusive relationship and the cigs and I really should just divorce.... bleh.
I like looking at art, I like making art - photos, pottery, fabrics, paints, paper ~~ My head is like
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Hugbook
Rainbow
bright colors..and bright friends. :)
Flower
Golden Age :)
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From BazLazarus
Friday
Some joy, well, quite alot actually....honest. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=faq...
Well Done
ya see that well done ribbon?..you love them you do.you collect em and stick them in your bedroom over ya mirror..yeah ya do....lololol......
Rainbow
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KvX...
Have a wonderful weekend!
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
I get anxious about stuff sometimes. I think my anxiety is all about fearing a lack of control. Over my environment, over other people's words and actions. You can't control what happens in life - all you can do is try and control how you respond to it. I used to take meds for it but stopped them all a few years ago. Meditation, exercise, getting proper sleep, and having a healthy diet has worked better for me than any meds could or did.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- I actually started Acupuncture to help with Migraines, wasn't that helpful for migraines but anxiety wise it does seem to do something for me.
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Abused it.
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- In through the nose - out of the mouth... lol... Progressive relaxation techniques in conjunction with breathwork can be very effective.
- BuSpar Somewhat Helpful
- Hated it, took it in conjunction with Paxil.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Abused it.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Very necessary for me. I meditate every morning faithfully. Also is pretty much my best "fast acting" solution if I'm feeling anxious- it's like natures valium :-)
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Hated it, side effects sucked. Needed to stop taking all meds because I just felt detached. Needed to "clean slate" and try to manage anxiety w/out meds..
- Valium Working / Worked
- Abused it.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Abused it rather heavily, as I did most benzo's. I liked it WAY too much, no longer use it... also made my memory crap...
Close Families & Friends Of Addicts
Made some poor choices when I was too young to know what I was getting into My lifestyle lead to me surrounding myself with good people with bad habits. I have lost a lot of dear friends to addiction and it has surfaced at some point and in various forms in nearly every element of my life: family, friends, my now defunct marriage and myself... no one likes to acknowledge weakness: sometimes pride can be your worst enemy.
Treatments
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
I was never great at moderation, but I'm doing a lot better!! Polysubstance abuse really but Benzo's by far were the hardest for me to break away from. Cravings still happen on a regular basis, in turn makes me feel weak willed and I get frustrated about it. With the exception of a couple of slip up have nearly 3 years sober from pills.
Treatments
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- ....Is often fleeting... Nothing will help you try and change bad habits like hitting an all time low will. Thats when willpower comes into it. Hindsight, some shame and willpower.
Open Breakups & Divorce
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